Lots of interview vibes, Hil.

askye, I'm so glad you're home and got out to a bookstore and you're back with your good therapist (I just caught up on everything and was @@ing forever at the psychiatrist who so-helpfully suggested that you just needed to learn to deal with your anxiety), and I hope the fuzziness and unfocus fade as your body adjusts to all the med changes.

sj, thinking good calming please-behave-rationally thoughts at your blood sugar levels. I'm sorry the GD is mucking with everything.

Man, I don't want to go to work. Like, ever again (nothing horribly bad, just standard how-is-this-my-professional-life-how-do-I-do-this-all-day-every-day-how-can-I-stagger-through-another-20-years-of-this self-questioning; still, way less awful than the blessedly departed days of Rage!Nurse).

One manifestation of depression: over a month's worth of receipts I haven't entered in Quicken. Damn, Steph. (Will I enter them today? Very possible.) (Am also doing laundry and plan to take a walk again today. Also work.)

Thanks, JZ. My doctor does not seem concerned with the occasional spike. We had an ultrasound today, and ltc is adorable and in the 50th percentile for weight.

I missed the group I wsa supposed to go to. I just blanked on the time. I've been really spacey with the new meds.

There's some place i need to be at 3:30 and I just don't want to go. But I will.

Yay for adorable ultrasound pics!

made my 3:30 thing wich was a peer outreach support thingy.

It was a disaster. I lost my temper and walked out. I didn't like one of the people she was so overbearing and I didn't think she was listening to me and she started every sentence with "I think" and then proceeded to get what I was saying wrong.

Plus she asked what brought me there and I started to give background and she interupted and said they didn't have a lot of time. I was tryign to be concise and I got over concise. I couldn't get them to understand that I was looking for another therapeutic support, some place to go or someone on to talk to around my work schedule. I found out about programs I didn't know about but she never even asked if I was good with computers she just assumed stuff "here's a pamphlet so you don't have to worry about going online" . The guy barely said anything and when he started she interrupted him.

She or they I can't remember kept thinking I didn't think DBT skills would help at work and she even disparaged DBT a little (I can only assume because she was trying to show she understood). Plus she seemed baffled that there isn't a private place at work "You don't have a break room". Yes and other people use it!

I ended up feeling attacked and talked down to and misunderstood. I kept saying I felt misunderstood and maybe this wasn't the right fit and she plowed on until I got up and left. She was saying "I think" and I said "I can't handle hearing that again" and went out to the lobby and cried.

Maybe the guy would have been nice to talk to but it was like he wasn't allowed to talk.

I'm going to call tomorrow and see if I can speak to the guy and apologize for my behavior.

Can I have some ~ma for my aunt? She's in the hospital. Her blood pressure has been really high for a while, and the doctors have been largely ignoring it but apparently "something" showed up on her MRI today. I have no idea what "something" is yet. This is my aunt who lost her husband last year, and I think people were largely ignoring her blood pressure because she must be upset about her husband's death, which is really unacceptable.

Askye, I'm sorry today didn't go well for you.

Health~ma for your aunt, sj.

Askye, that person sounds like the exact opposite of supportive. I'm sorry you had to deal with her.

Skipping without skimming, cause I had my regular needle in the eye today, so I can't really read much. Came home to a situation. I take a blood med twice daily. Mid May, pharmacy refilled for 30 instead of 60, and amid my total of 18 prescriptions I failed to notice. Only caught it when I realized how short I was on blood pressure meds. So I called doctor and they sent new prescription for 60. But Molina won't approve it since last prescription was 30 for 30 days, thus early June is too soon. But they won't approve as error correction either because the error was caught too late. Molina said send in a pre-auth for the 60 as a new prescription and they will consider it.

At my doctors office receptionists are not allowed to take messages regarding prescriptions: must be left as voice mail with medical assistants. So I've got to hope they get message and act on it by tommorow. Oh and could not go to doctors in person because the injection in eye means I can't drive until late tonight, long after doctors office is closed. Target already gave me a 3 day advance on the Losartan (stopped by before I had to go to doctors today). So no more advances. If worse comes to worst I wonder how dangerous a week without blood pressure medication is? I mean people go with untreated high blood pressure for years sometimes. Of course I exercise fairly intensely, running in place... I don't wan't to panic over nothing like I did hte other night.

Oh yeah, self-pay option $80+

my stomach has been taking stuff out on me all day. It does that, sometimes, barely starting to feel decent. My digestion is often not a team player.