That sounds good, Hil. Interview~ma for you!

My doctor suggested yesterday that there might be some depressive symptoms feeding into the anxiety (I got slightly indignant and said "You treated me for depression in the past -- these symptoms are NOT like that!", and he agreed, but pointed out that was HUGE life-sucking depression, but what he's seeing now is just some mild symptoms).

And despite my knee-jerk disagreement yesterday, I thought about it, and he's probably right. I can recognize a huge problem when it happens, because it derails my life, but these milder symptoms -- well, it's easy to just say "Not enough sleep," or "Too much work!" Both of which are true from time to time, but not always. The low-level symptoms have been consistent, but I just thought they were something else.

So, I'm glad I went to the doctor yesterday, and I hope the Lexapro helps (without side effects, which is a big concern for me). I have a LOT to do in the next 2 weeks, and I can't even imagine how I'm going to do it.

I'm getting pretty certain that I don't want to work at the place where I'm interviewing today. I tried googling a bit to find out more about it, and the word "cult" is coming up pretty often. Along with the sort of overly glowing comments that, if this were Yelp, would make me assume they were written by the owner.

Get better soon, Debet.

Good luck with that interview, Hil.

Steph, I hope the Lexapro does good things and not bad for you.

I'm glad you went to the doctor, Teppy. IME, not enough sleep is actually a sign of depression which then makes the depression and anxiety worse.

Hil, just think of it as interview practice for the next one?

IME, not enough sleep is actually a sign of depression which then makes the depression and anxiety worse.

It's not an insomnia thing; it's a staying-up-too-late-reading thing, which is entirely my fault. But lack of sleep, regardless of the cause, TOTALLY screws with my mood, and I know better. It's an easy trap to slip into, because Tim stays up too late, too, so I lose track of the time since he's still up and all the lights are on, etc.

Hil, just think of it as interview practice for the next one?

Good idea. I can definitely use some practice.

That makes sense, but I also find I procrastinate sleep more when I'm depressed because I'm too anxious to go to bed. Not that that necessarily makes any sense.

I procrastinate sleep more when I'm depressed because I'm too anxious to go to bed. Not that that necessarily makes any sense.

That could be true. I haven't been very introspective, because I didn't think it was a depression thing. I need to take a little closer look at what habits I've slid into, and why.

I wish I didn't have to travel (twice) in the next 2 weeks. I do not have the spoons, in a major way. I *want* to do what I'm traveling for -- nothing would keep me from my brother's graduation;* I would move mountains to be there...and it feels like that's what I'm doing, actually -- and while I'm not super thrilled about going to Chicago for work, I *am* super excited to see Buffistas (and see Age of Ultron with them!) -- but I just wish I had the energy to match my desire to be there.

*(Tim pointed out that maybe looking at the trip to Vermont like a mini-vacation will help, that I can just chill out and recharge. I hope so.)

Sorry, depression symptoms are all I've been thinking about lately. I know I'm terribly depressed and pretty much impossible to be around right now, but I'm resistant to the idea of going on meds while pregnant. Although, I do plan on starting them pretty much the minute ltc is born and have told my doctors as much. I know I should look into finding a therapist but it seems like all I do is go to doctor's appointments lately, and I don't feel like adding another one. Plus, my last therapist experience was so awful.