While I do think finding a therapist is a good idea,i have anothor thought or too. You life is smoothing out. Your work is stable, you and Tim are good , you have a routine....so now your brain has time to freak out about everything. So you maybe reacting to past stuff.

I can't talk about the memeory thing - I used to remember everthing - now, not so much

sending out general ma~~~ to all that I have missed. For the first time in over two weeks I woke up feeling like me. not some sick person. I 've read things all along but I haven't been able to type due to lack of brain

I am currently eating a non-Easter candy food (split pea soup) and watching CA:TWS. (Boo, Sitwell. Booooo.) Then: take a shower and finish my dang taxes.

sending out general ma~~~ to all that I have missed. For the first time in over two weeks I woke up feeling like me. not some sick person.

Glad you're back, beth! Both here and in your head.

Steph, GAD just blows, that's all. I strongly second the rec of talking to your doctor, getting a rec for a therapist if he can make one, and getting some dang meds. I've been having a super anxiety freak-out the last couple weeks, and it finally dawned on me that maybe I shouldn't have stopped taking those meds that were working for me (I'm a genius, you know), so I started taking them again, and wow, I feel so much better. So, yeah, better living through chemistry.

Another thing I've been doing for a few months that's helped my depression/anxiety a lot is, taking 2000 IUs of vitamin D a day. I recommend it as something cheap that might help.

gets this weird thousand-yard stare and sits there all stiff and mute

Oh, that is familiar. My mom would do that, too. Poor Tim. Emotions are terribly confusing and frightening. He may need a script. "You are a wonderful person and I love you, and everything will be all right! I have removed the viper pit and have no plans to install a trebuchet on the roof."

This brain med has amusing side effects. I ALMOST just said "I love you" instead of "good-bye" to a phone support tech. Man, that would have been impossible to explain.

"You are a wonderful person and I love you, and everything will be all right! I have removed the viper pit and have no plans to install a trebuchet on the roof."

Whereas Hubby always promised to disassemble the trebuchet in the front yard after he was done. But yeah, a lot of men kind of freeze when there's something they can't fix.

I called the doctor's office, and they can actually see me tomorrow, which I didn't expect, so that's good.

Another thing I've been doing for a few months that's helped my depression/anxiety a lot is, taking 2000 IUs of vitamin D a day. I recommend it as something cheap that might help.

I'm a freak who is allergic to vitamin D supplements. I had a terrible rashy reaction to it several years ago.

gets this weird thousand-yard stare and sits there all stiff and mute

Oh, that is familiar. My mom would do that, too. Poor Tim. Emotions are terribly confusing and frightening. He may need a script. "You are a wonderful person and I love you, and everything will be all right! I have removed the viper pit and have no plans to install a trebuchet on the roof."

I should just type up some index cards for him. Then he can hand them to me and not have to speak.

Teppy, I'd really talk to your doctor about the anxiety but also if this is a reaction the sudafed. Even if you haven't had this reaction in the past people's reactions to medications change.

I've learned some in the moment distraction techniques that sort of short circuit your brain out of the loop and one of them is squeezing an ice cube. (or something frozen if you don't have ice cubes). Talking to someone and doing chores is also on the list. Well it's on the list of things to distract yourself from self destructive behaviors, but I thin it's on the ways to distract from anxiety and other stuff list (there's lots of duplication).

Also in the offical DBT workbook as healthy distractions - masterbuation and sex with someone you care about.

This brain med has amusing side effects. I ALMOST just said "I love you" instead of "good-bye" to a phone support tech. Man, that would have been impossible to explain.

Heh.

When my doctor and I were getting my antidepressants worked out, I saw my landlord, completely forgot who he was, but recognized him as someone I knew and was fond of. So I went up and hugged him. While he is a very nice person, our relationship is not a hugging one.

I should just type up some index cards for him. Then he can hand them to me and not have to speak.

Can't hurt.