Aw, Beverly. It's funny, but I find myself apologizing to Harvey and Sammie for not being better. Well, the humans who are the real problems are the ones who don't worry about any ways for them improve.

Shadow never liked fish.

I personally would rather be prepared if we find out there is a problem, we can have a pediatric neurologist, orthopedic, etc set up before the baby is born

It is one of those personal decisions where I totally understand both views. They had wanted me to do a bunch of tests because of my advanced age. If it was blood draws it was fine because they checked my blood weekly anyway. I didn't want to know what they were testing for because I didn't want to worry. Refused the amnio though. It was one of those things where it wasn't going to change anything for me to know in advance.

My phobia about tests probably goes back to Stephen. I got tested for HIV every six months including six months after he died. I never ever worried about it, except for the few days after they would take the damn tests. Blah.

Buffista pets did indeed win the human lotto. That is what I tell my son now when he bitches about his parents. Dude, you hit the parental lotto. We started this when we were listening to some news report on NPR about some parents that had their child kidnapped and stripped and scared half to death purposely to teach stranger danger. Then there was another news report right after about Michael Jackson. Then there was a 3rd thing that happened that same day that involved crap parents. Ever since then I remind him that he hit the parental lotto when he says stupid stuff about his parents. Dude is 23. No reason to not tell it to him straight.

It is one of those personal decisions where I totally understand both views. They had wanted me to do a bunch of tests because of my advanced age. If it was blood draws it was fine because they checked my blood weekly anyway. I didn't want to know what they were testing for because I didn't want to worry. Refused the amnio though. It was one of those things were it wasn't going to change anything for me to know in advance.

We refused the amnio too and the other test that they offer than can also lead to miscarriage. We want to be prepared, but after taking so long to get pregnant any risk of miscarriage is too high for us. And I am also an old pregnant lady, which they seem to remind me of at every appointment.

sj I'm glad the tests came out fine.

My previous kitty Dean had all kinds of food related issues, couldn't eat poultry or grains and I settled on Natural Balance Green Pea and Salmon. for him.

I have Penny on Blue Buffalo Freedom Adult Grain Free Cat Food - Chicken. She seems to do well on it. I had to switch her briefly off of it and it was a mistake. It's more expensive but she goes through less food.

So I'm home from work early. Again. I started feeling manic and noticed I was starting to vibrate and had trouble keeping my temper in check.

I've been thinking off and on about taking a leave of absence from work. First because of the whole Coughing That Would Not Stop. And now it's My Life is Stressful and Therapy is Working but Making Me More Stressed. With a side of Relationship Stress thrown in.

It's too much to deal with. Pretty much every day I've had to fight the urge to do something self destructive that will sabotage my job or the relationship or even just act out when I'm public. I can't keep doing this.

I talked to R, the assistant manager today about it. He saw me Saturday he knew what was going on, I told him I could feel it starting again - at home I'm okay I dont' have all the sensory stuff going on pushing me along and if I need to yell or cry or break out into song I can.

Work not so much. R is very very understanding, his wife has bipolar disorder. We talked about it. I'm going to work tomorrow, I have WEd-Fri off. i'm going to talk to my therapist and then let him know on Friday. This would be unpaid but I have some PTO time I could use for this. I fI do the leave he'll put in for hte max time and then I can come back early and they'll work with my schedule to give me the flexibility I need.

Then he distracted me with talk of World of Warcraft and offered to give me a hug if I needed it. Which I did. And he gave me some personal contact info.

I can't juggle all of this at once and I need a break from something before I break and this is the only responsible thing I can think of.

I'm so glad that R is so understanding, askye. You deserve support that IS support.

What WS said, askye. You deserve good support and you're being very responsible.

That wonderful news, sj.

askye, I'm glad you've got such an understanding boss. I hope the time off helps reset your baseline for you.

Burrell, I have only found this, but you may well find it useful -Royal Canin, seems reasonable quality, possibly even good enough to start your cat on sooner rather than later. [link]

I think I tried one of those as well, WS. Thanks