They're happiest, it seems, if they feel like no one can see them while they eat.

They're excellent predators but small, so they do feel safest eating in safety.

So over being sick. Having to oxygenate my blood is tedious. And apparently not as automatic as one would hope.

Ugh Cass, that doesn't sound fun

I miss being a highly functional adult. I can't wait to get all my brain back but I'm worried it's just gone.

Yeppers. Right there with you. I have been very much having a week/month of realizing a lot of time is just gone and there is no getting stuff back.

Today's parental failure -- after a morning that felt like it was all win -- was realizing that we sent Frances off to a field trip on a sailing boat without slathering her in sunblock. Argh! She's gonna come back with a sunburn. Even though she has sunblock in her backpack, we assume that she's not going to remember it's there and use it.

I miss being a highly functional adult.

Yeah, what was that like? I miss it. I hope Frances somehow remembers her sunblock.

I have been very much having a week/month of realizing a lot of time is just gone and there is no getting stuff back.

Seriously, stuff happens and it feels like it wasn't supposed to happen for months. Except maybe it's been months? Sick twice since NYD doesn't help but sheesh.

I just had to talk myself into making another piece of toast since I ate the first one five hours ago. Toast made with homemade honey wheat bread from my Mom and ripe avocado to smash onto it. I hope by tomorrow food seems more interesting. And breathing. I'll take breathing first actually.

The bad thing about not breathing well is, the less well you do it, the less you're often motivated to do it.

Keep breathing. As the Zen Judaism koan goes, "Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Forget this and attaining enlightenment will be the least of your problems."

I swear, somebody keeps turning down the damn thermostat and turning up the rpms on day length. Increment by increment, things approach and fly past faster than they used to. I wish I could locate the speed control, frankly. I'd like to devote a few extra seconds, here and there.

I heard from the nurse today. They just got the pertussis results back. I don't have it. I was told I'd get them in 24-48 hours but they had to send it to a state lab and it took longer.

I asked the nurse about the continued cough and tiredness, she said that was typical of recovering from multiple viruses and infection and having post viral cough stuff. It would probably be a slow steady recovery to feeling better. However if I wasn't noticing improvement in a week or so to come back in- that as improvement in feeling tired or the cough or my ears were still bothering me.

Went to therapy today and it was. Therapy. Kind of productive, kind of rough. I think i'm going to ask if I can have Wednesday and Thursday off specifically, the way I feel today I think I may need a second day of recovery. It's all positive but that also means painful.

And on the plus side 25F outside!!

I have been betrayed by my favorite bra. I'm over 500 miles from home and the underwire snapped. Luckily this bra has lots of fabric around the wire, so it isn't stabbing me, but I have an angle where there should be a curve under my right boob.

Oh that's the worst.

Okay, maybe not the actual worst: [link]

But pretty bad. And unlike the braintrust in the link, not your fault.