Goddamnit. The girl I'd been out with several times and constantly texting with and was supposed to go out again with tomorrow? Just texted (after a sudden 24 hour silence) that yeah, she'd decided to date someone else exclusively and I'm great and she'd love to be friends. No, fuck you (and especially fuck you thinking we'd/being willing to fuck on the second date, and I'm glad we didn't). And cue eternal "I will die alone and what is wrong with me and whyyyyyyyyyyy" and tears. Fuck.

Oh, meara, ouch. And boo her. I have been on the receiving end of that you're-awesome-just-not-as-awesome-as-the-other-person and it sucks and is brutal to the heart. I think your heart is a lovely (and smart and sexy) one, and I'm sorry it's getting bruised.

I think it is more that she hadn't made her mind up than anything wrong with you, but in that case, forward much?

Penny started growling and acting funny so I stuck my head out to see if someone was stupid enough to let their cat out. There was no cat. Or anything out there.

That was half hour ago and my face is still cold. I didn't have the door open long but there's not a lot of snow yet (we're expected to get between 6-12" by Monday) but the new stuff looks heavy and wet.

Although I can't really complain about the snow, it's not like I'm in Boston.

People pay me a particular...compliment, a lot(At least I think they are, even though I kind of don't find being called "simple" a mood booster, neccessarily, but what does a reference to my "simplicity" mean?) I mean, I'm obviously not A Creature Like No Other In the Rulesy sense, but I did go to college. I'm not exactly out here with a rain barrel and a dream. Are men(although occasionally women have called me "refreshing" which I suspect is close.) so used to women that don't say what they think that I am novel on that basis?

Oh FFS meara, that's just stupid. She's dumb. You are smart, fun, gorgeous, and a really good kisser. I know it doesn't particularly help to know rationally that ya'll aren't a good fit and you are better off without her, but it sure does sting. Dance it off?

erika i get "refreshing" an awful lot also for saying things that are clearly true but apparently not expected. (My filters are only accessable for a limited amount of time per day and i have to save most of that filter time for work.) It seems to be code for "I didn't really want to hear that but can't say that out loud."

I get that a LOT.

I would have laughed if I had not been so aggro during the staff meeting fight on Friday when the company owner chastised me for using 'inflammatory language' ("So you are blackmailing us.") and then turning to the person I said that to and yelling, "Don't blackmail!"

"I didn't really want to hear that but can't say that out loud."

Totally this.

I don't seem myself as the Cordelia of tact because I really can be tactful but circumspect language is a pain in my backside and, for real, not always called for!

meara, blahhh. I know that feeling so well and it sucks. I'm just tired of it all. Last night at the parade I was flirting with our Starlord who was super hot and he was flirting back and then he disappeared with another Rocket Raccoon. I mean, probably wasn't The One or even A One but I was hoping for at least a good geeky makeout session.

askye, I hope the inhaler helps.

It is hot here today. High of 76. I don't mean to taunt, but it's weird to be in t-shirt and shorts and flip flops when a few days ago I was wearing long underwear and many many layers.

bonny, that's a lot to deal with at one time. Fingers crossed for you on all fronts.

76? That's crazy warm!

I got up early and am trying to convince myself to get dressed and go run. I know I'll be glad if I go do it, but somehow that does not get me off the couch...

And last night I was so irked I deactivated my OKCupid account and deleted Tinder. I'm just so tired of trying to be hopeful that someone awesome is around the corner. I feel like I know so many super great people that are single (though sadly not enough of them are in Seattle to at least have someone to hang out with!!), and so many awful people who are married (obvi, also some awesome people who are married but not the point), and it just baffles me. And depresses me.