Another night and barely any sleep. I see my shrink on Thursday but I don't have faith he'll advise anything. Called the GP about my Uti situation I have an appointment Wednesday. They had 1 opening today bUT it was in the middle of my shit and they didn't want me to make the appointment and waithe until I could call work and make sure it was okay because it's the Monday after a holiday and they a busy and I could leave a message for the nurse but I had to do something and get off the phone.
I need to find a urologist. But not now. Now I'm going to take more OTC stuff and try and take a nap.
I hope you got some sleep and you're feeling better, askye.
My boss just called to ask if I have any information on this thing an author is complaining about. I've talked to her about this thing at least three times. Several years ago a "task force" was started to fix this, and I volunteered to be on it. Never heard anything else about it, and the thing didn't get fixed. And today, she knows nothing about this thing and says she has never noticed it.
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Well, I'm calling it a win that I went after it.
Continuing the series of dreaming about Hubby, a few days ago, at the height of my worry about Shadow the cat, I had a dream of me worrying about what to do about him if he kept hiding outside or under the couch. Several people were talking about it, and I remember Hubby saying "It's OK, I've got him." I thought nothing of it until almost a day later. It was another day before I bit the bullet and let Shadow go.
edit: Normally I'm a very empirical person. I am very ambivalent about supernatural stuff. Maybe it's all wish fulfillment. Maybe that's not a bad thing, if it works.
I've had such dreams. For me it is a comfort. Whether it is my brain or something else, whatever. I also am comforted with the thought of Shadow snuggling with Hubby.
I'm an empirical person, but I believe in an afterlife. I've tried not to, because it's not scientific, but I can't not.
I go back and forth about it myself, but if it makes you feel better that's worth something.
I have no belief in an afterlife, but not on a rational basis - though I can make plenty of rational arguments. But the emotional rejection came first. And I won't explain further, cause I've had religious people who can live with purely rational rejection of the supernatural get offended when I explain the emotional basis of my view. And I don't want to convince anyone anyway, cause if someone gets comfort from the opposite view that is fine with me.
Honestly, the main thing I do is to walk around with a batch of anti-racist stickers, so that whenever I see a racist sticker/sign I can cover it with the anti-racist sticker.
Mostly all I can do is sign on-line petitions and repost things on Twitter and Facebook. (And make small donations here and there). But I believe that doing these little things is helping to create the spirit of change. By speaking up and saying in our small ways that certain things are Not OK, we give our energy to that spirit, rather than giving it to the spirit of keeping things the same.
As for the afterlife, by dint of religion, I believe. And I knew a rocket scientist not from my faith who pointed out that conservation of energy means that the electrical energy of a person's brain has to go somewhere, it cannot simply cease to be. Then she said she had occassionally felt the presence of deceased loved ones.
