I know what you mean, Steph, and what they all said. It makes it more real if you say it aloud.
I have encouraging news! First DH told me that he had a pleasant call and chat with #1 son the other day. This is monumental because pleasant isn't a word I hear either of them use when discussing the other. Son told dad he had been writing lyrics and that he had a lot of positive feedback and sales potential or some such. Dad told him that he always felt that he had a talent for writing and encouraged him to follow his dreams. So I sent son a message (normal occurrence for me) and told him that I heard he had a nice conversation with his dad about his writing and so forth. And he wrote back and told me some more (with sample). And then mocked me with the news of Trader Joe's opening near his place.
So I'm feeling the potential of moving to the next stage where we interact as loving adults and not combatants. Trying not to get too excited, but I am anyway.
it's your very nature to be excited
Usually talking about a problem out loud will stop the anxiety dreams, which is a good thing.
Jilli, I was at Target today and didn't see the Beetljuice underwear, but they did have Jack Skellington ones, bikini style. Let me know if you want them, if not I'm happy to keep them.
Sometimes, Tep, it depends what the problem is.
I had a dream the other night that I sent an embarrassing e-mail and was very relieved that I didn't really do it(Except for having dreams about e-mail, which seems like a failure of imagination, somehow.It felt really real, though.)
Jilli, I was at Target today and didn't see the Beetljuice underwear, but they did have Jack Skellington ones, bikini style. Let me know if you want them, if not I'm happy to keep them.
You keep them. I'm after the Beetlejuice ones. Thank you for looking!
I'll keep an eye out if I hit a different target.
Brains and major life changes are very confusing. I'm going through my day here at work, it's moderately quiet and nothing's happening that I can't cope with. A good day. I think "I feel good. Wait. Am I allowed to feel good? You're barely two months off a catastrophic life upheaval. Is it too soon?" So frustrating.
I feel good. Wait. Am I allowed to feel good?
You are. I think a lot of damage is done to people by telling them they're "supposed" to feel a certain way at a certain time. How you feel is how you feel. You may feel a different way tomorrow or even 30 minutes from now, and that's allowed, too.
A/C guy is here fixing the leak, and doing general maintenance, which hasn't been done in years. Far more than the two that I've lived here. On the plus side, he says the unit is a workhorse and looks to be in good shape. On the downside, he says I'm living on borrowed time, that these things last about 20 years, and it's from 1982. So when it goes, it won't be worth repairing, it'd be best to replace. Thankfully, not at that point just yet. Well, there is the downside of home ownership.
Oh, and for the first time, the repair guy isn't some stinky old guy. Dude is young, blond, and looks like he could be an extra in True Blood.
Well, there is the downside of home ownership.
Yeah, but any unit you get now (or in the near-ish future) is going to be WAY more energy efficient, which will make a difference in your electric bills. Plus -- although I'm not sure if this is still the case -- some energy-efficient appliances are eligible for a tax rebate and/or a rebate from your electric company.
