I'm dating. I guess?

high five

Hello, possible M.

I'm moderately peeved by this: summer company party comes with a t-shirt or something for employee and guest, even if not attending. I put in my order in June. However, someone obviously correlated HR changes with the t-shirt order, because I only got mine. I was kind of looking forward to having another set of two. Or they could have asked if I still wanted two.

I have a boyfriend

Cool! They say the first step is admitting you have a boyfriend....

and a couple of her pictures are cute and a couple NSM, so who knows what she looks like in person

Still pictures are funny that way. A number of people look much better with motion added. And some are very photogenic.

As one who is happily coupled up I want all my beloveds to be happily coupled up if that is what they desire.

Or they could have asked if I still wanted two.

Well yeah. If for no other reason than you may decide to attend with a guest.

I haven't ever really dated. I either end up *really* in a relationship or, as is more likely lately without a trace.

A number of people look much better with motion added.

Oh, this is me. My pictures always look horrible, but I look okay in person. I think I do, anyway! (On FB someone I've known for 35 years told me I'm "hotter than 2 T-rexes in a sock" which is the best absurd compliment ever.)

Today, if I didn't have a job, I'd just go back to bed. I'm bloated, stiff, achy, and aggravated, and I want to eat non-stop. The scale says I've gained 6 pounds in the last 3 days, which isn't really possible, so it must be retained water. I long for menopause.

I don't know about this Buspar. I've not gotten anywhere near the dose the doctor wanted me to ramp up to, and this is the most I even want to try. Intense dreams, sleeping HARD but not really well; I have more energy but it's all going to agitation, not to, like, doing anything. And I'm noticing myself forgetting things I shouldn't forget - never mind brain lapses on Jeopardy! questions, I'm forgetting how to spell. The muscle twitches are being kept in check with magnesium supplements so far, but I don't like this. I see the doctor again Thursday, and I think I'm going to tell him I want to quit it.

I was on generic Zoloft or Xanax or something once, and I kept walking around with my fists clenched all the time. I didn't think that was right.

Exactly, Connie. Something that's supposed to reduce anxiety shouldn't be making me agitated.

Yay, smonster! (Hi M, if relevant). I hope your beach trip is good.

High Fives Smonster!! May he be "the one" (god that sounds like a bad Matrix commerical).

The bulk of my day was going through the work email inbox. I had well over 5,000 messages, 800+ unread (usually skipped past as not important, or marked unread to catch my eye that it's still pending, and then forgotten as the next round of 50-60 emails fill in the top of the inbox). Today, I have it down to 3,177 messages, 375 unread! ... Progress, right?

Oh, and I think I found pub quiz night in my city! Tuesdays. Trying to organize a group for next week. Trying to be more social. It's so easy for me to be a hermit.