I just finished the set of episodes in S2 where Dana Dulaney is the FBI wunder-agent. I'll pick up S3 but maybe just specific episodes from later seasons. I really resented what they did to the original captain, and, of course, the whole Beckett's mother thing.

I did see Captain America, and I'm about to be taken to Maleficent.

I liked Malificent, I hope you do too.

Maleficent wasn't bad, though its twist is kind of ruined by Frozen doing the same thing.

Went looking for his keys, they were in the first bag I looked. Wasn't prepared for what the sound of them would do to me.

Fuck.

Unexpected things are unexpected. Hang on.

Weirdly, after the first shock, I'm mostly OK once I incorporate that particular pain into the mosaic. It's tempting fate, but the pain doesn't mean something horrible to come. There's the anticipation of coping with the pain, but the event is done. It's a wound that's happened, and healing is hard, but the infliction is in the past. Though again I find myself slightly envying those who can take themselves off into a dramatic decline and have other people cope for them.

One step after the other, Connie. I'm keeping you in my thoughts.

And in another post.

Thank you for the words. My city is bleeding and raging right now. In a way (that's ignoring the death toll), that's the hardest part. I'm keeping myself safe, and choosing my anti-racist demonstrations wisely.

There's a sentence that's been repeated in the first anti-racist demonstration, the day after the racist mobs terrorized my city, that was the day after it's been revealed that the three teenagers were dead. "This is the time for mourning, not for revenge". I think it's the first time in decades I hear Jews saying that. Almost no one else dared to say it before (Holocaust repercussions). A part of me wants to believe, carefully, that it might be a good sign. To have some kind of public emotion that is not a blood-thirst.

There's a sentence that's been repeated in the first anti-racist demonstration, the day after the racist mobs terrorized my city, that was the day after it's been revealed that the three teenagers were dead. "This is the time for mourning, not for revenge". I think it's the first time in decades I hear Jews saying that. Almost no one else dared to say it before (Holocaust repercussions). A part of me wants to believe, carefully, that it might be a good sign. To have some kind of public emotion that is not a blood-thirst.

That does seem like a good sign, or at least the beginning of one. (I've been following the news from over here, and mostly going through a whole lot of emotions without knowing anything to do with them.)

Shir, I'm so sorry for what you and your city are going through, and I'm glad you're staying safe.

Connie, you continue to be in my thoughts.

We're home from Mom's. The ride home took much longer than usual because of the holiday weekend. I'm tired but up late enjoying the quiet of my own home and reading.

So back to the routine tomorrow. This is going to be hard. The yawning hole in my life will be emphasized. New routines are going to have to be made. I wish I wasn't July in Utah, I would like to wear mourning.