Yeah, I meant, not to rush away from, I just meant that is something I haven't done much, although f2f hotels have been very nice.
Dawn: Is that supposed to scare me? Spike: Little tremble wouldn't hurt.
'The Killer In Me'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
erikaj - Jun 23, 2014 11:26:45 am PDT #11575 of 30002
Always Anti-fascist!
sj - Jun 23, 2014 11:40:30 am PDT #11576 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
I finally got a therapist to call me back, and I have an appointment next Tuesday.
Beverly - Jun 23, 2014 3:04:27 pm PDT #11577 of 30002
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.
Stick a candle in that taco, Steph, and make a wish. Happy Birthday!
Happy Book-aversary, Jilli!
And I'm glad you found a therapist, sj.
EpicTangent - Jun 23, 2014 7:11:07 pm PDT #11578 of 30002
Why isn't everyone pelting me with JOY, dammit? - Zenkitty
Happy Bday, Steph!
askye - Jun 24, 2014 10:21:37 am PDT #11579 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
So. I've seen the new shrink twice. He doesn't think I have bipolar disorder. He thinks I have severe low self esteem and emotional trauma from childhood illnesses/bullying and esteem issues that I developed unhealthy coping mechanisms (like racing thoughts) to, well, cope.
And that he wants me to start psychodynamic therapy and taper of lithium. He is willing to let me keep the klonopon for now.
I'm still processing but I don't know if I van find another shrink for a second opinion and I know I need therapy so I'm going to try it.
The practice is very very altmed. Maybe more than I'm comfortable with but I'm going to try this. I still am seeing the EAP therapist and I'm going to run this by her. I can't remember her therapy style but if this is what she does and she'll see me I may feel more comfortable. I don't know. I wish I could see 2 therapists at the same time to try them oout.
Laura - Jun 24, 2014 11:14:01 am PDT #11580 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
Not my area of expertise, but if what you are doing now isn't working then another approach may be what is needed. You need to be comfortable with and have confidence in the therapist. I'm really hoping this works out well for you.
sj - Jun 24, 2014 11:18:30 am PDT #11581 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Askye, I really hope this new approach works for you.
I'm not having a good day today. Lunch with friends seems to have taken all my spoons, despite being fun.
Laura - Jun 24, 2014 11:40:33 am PDT #11582 of 30002
Our wings are not tired.
I'm sorry, sj. Take it easy on yourself. Spoons are understandably limited.
WindSparrow - Jun 24, 2014 5:53:15 pm PDT #11583 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Starting therapy is not easy. Kudos to those who are taking care of themselves in this way right now.
askye - Jun 24, 2014 6:11:40 pm PDT #11584 of 30002
Thrive to spite them
I'm ready for a new approach it's just...daunting and scary. I'm also pretty sure based on my reactions today that I'll need a regular appointment that doesn't change and have to make that day unavailable for work. At least for awhile.
I was having a hard time dealing with people with all the emotions below the surface and that was just talking about the prospect of it.
I guess it's time becuase I'm able to admit to the doctor today and to the therapist I've been seeing and mostly to myself some stuff that I've danced around or pushed aside.