Laura, I feel okay. I had accepted this was going to happen, and honestly waiting to have a miscarriage was so stressful that I sort of feel a little relieved that it is over. I can't decide if that makes me a bad person or not. I do wish my doctor's office would call me back though. I'm grateful vw is coming here today. It will keep me from sitting in my pajamas all day and dwelling.
The girl's not playing with a full deck, Giles. She has almost no deck. She has a three.
Buffy ,'Same Time, Same Place'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
sj - Jun 17, 2014 4:43:15 am PDT #11437 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Amy - Jun 17, 2014 5:09:47 am PDT #11438 of 30002
Because books.
It doesn't make you a bad person at all, sj. It's an awful thing to have to go through, and it's not at all wrong to be glad it's over. It doesn't change how much you wanted the pregnancy.
I'm so glad you and vw get to visit today.
DebetEsse - Jun 17, 2014 5:12:49 am PDT #11439 of 30002
Woe to the fucking wicked.
Uncertainty is a bitch. Having things resolved, even if not in the way we would have wanted, can be easier than living with the question mark.
WindSparrow - Jun 17, 2014 10:26:55 am PDT #11440 of 30002
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
You are not a bad person. We aren't meant to be stuck in hard times forever, and it is perfectly reasonable to feel relieved when there is a little movement past the hard time.
Typo Boy - Jun 17, 2014 1:48:59 pm PDT #11441 of 30002
Calli: My people have a saying. A man who trusts can never be betrayed, only mistaken.Avon: Life expectancy among your people must be extremely short.
What Windsparrow said. Had the eye thing to today so will be succinct. Possibly laconic.
sj - Jun 17, 2014 1:56:57 pm PDT #11442 of 30002
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Thanks, everyone. I had a wonderful Thai lunch with vw, who continues to be an amazing person, and then I apparently need a very long nap. Luckily, we still have enough leftover from Sunday that only reheating is required for dinner.
SailAweigh - Jun 17, 2014 2:09:34 pm PDT #11443 of 30002
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb
sj, I'm sorry to hear the sad news, but am also very glad you had the support of vw to see you through the day. Much love to you and TCG.
Vortex - Jun 17, 2014 3:43:32 pm PDT #11444 of 30002
"Cry havoc and let slip the boobs of war!" -- Miracleman
Oh, sj, I am so sorry. Please let me know if I can do anything.
JZ - Jun 17, 2014 4:25:08 pm PDT #11445 of 30002
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
I'm so glad you had vw and comfort food, and that you and TCG have each other. All my love to both of you.
Typo Boy - Jun 17, 2014 7:14:04 pm PDT #11446 of 30002
Calli: My people have a saying. A man who trusts can never be betrayed, only mistaken.Avon: Life expectancy among your people must be extremely short.
Had my routine needle in the eye to improve my vision today. The good news: this round was side effect free. Bad news: slightly worse than last month and long term trend does not seem to be improving. Given how well I've controlled my blood sugar, it is kind of discouraging. I know treating retinopathy can take a long time to stabilize, but it has been well over a year. To tell the truth I'm freaking out a bit. I think part of the problem is though this doctor is highly skilled his English really is not good enough to tell me how this compares to other cases and what the long term prognosis is.