Why am I hungry? I've eaten an absolutely normal amount of food today and done not much, there is no reason for me to be ravenous.

Fortunately I have some jello made, that should tide me over.

Expensive clothes, I don't know, probably it's best if I'm never exposed to them up close and personal and don't really know what I'm missing. I do dream of having one excellent designer outfit, maybe a suit, but I'd need my size to stabilize so I could theoretically wear it for many years and, y'know, money to spend on that.

Also, I'm watching Criminal Minds,

I just finished watching, and I think Reid just won the Woobie of the decade award.

I get real hung up about expensive things sometimes, mostly because I chose my current income level. Like I simultaneously want them, can't believe people spend that much on them, and also don't really understand what they are. With houses, for example: nice houses have basically all the same things as mine, but the surfaces are all nicer. For example my wealthy friends with the unbelievably comfortable pull out sofa. That's the kind of thing that money makes a difference in quality.

But clothes and fashion, I sometimes understand and sometimes don't. Better materials, a better cut. Better tailoring for sure. But I have never understood buying the name. I'm like that William Gibson character who was allergic to brands--I used to cut the tags off my clothes.

I guess ultimately it's the class status thing. The things that I'd buy that are expensive I'd never actually buy because my lifestyle is very rough. I spend a lot of time on my knees. I haul wood and shovel ashes. I practice archery in subzero weather. Quality clothing is important, but in a very different way.

I think part of it is that I would have expensive tastes if I could. I bought a $600 down coat in Santa Fe this year...because it was on sale for $99. (It's gorgeous. But was too big for me already and now that I've lost weight is just about unwearable, so I should probably sell.) So I buy expensive things at normal prices and normal things at dollar a bag prices.

I get real hung up about expensive things sometimes

I once explained to megan walker that the difference between a $40 haircut and a $65 haircut was in the 10% of time finessing the details. And I think that's kind of true with most things - finishing the surfaces, creating the subtle connotations of "Quality!"

But, like, what is worth? You know, man?

That makes it sound like what makes things expensive is stuff I quite likely wouldn't appreciate.

But, like, what is worth? You know, man?

My Shakespeare professor had a great riff on this re: Shylock's "My Daughter, My Ducats!"

I will pay premiums for quality where I value it. Case in point: fixing Pumpkin, and the rest of the crews' shots. Sure, cheaper at ASPCA, but my vets do pro-bono shit, god knows I've benefitted from that, I can afford it, so I pay the premium.

But clothes? Me and my cat is hard on thems.

You know, one of the cool things about Buffistas is I can mention that I just watched 36 episodes of Lost Girl in six days and no one would raise an eyebrow.

Probably.