I had Devi put to sleep this afternoon.
Typical stubborn, cantankerous Devi, she managed to bite my finger and make me bleed profusely (freaked the vet out, I was like, oh, this is nothing) as I was signing off on the form and initialing the "hasn't bit anyone in 10 days." And then she would.not.die. and needed a second dose. Which wasn't traumatic like it sounds, she was out, but her body just wouldn't quit. It was just so...Devi. Non-compliant to the end.
Now going to see if I can get it together enough to swim tonight. It'd help, mentally, but I can't swim with my nose this gunked up and stray convulsive sobs.