eShakti looks to have some very pretty stuff, but I'm finding I haven't caught up with summer. Walking through the women's department at Macy's yesterday gave me a (literal) (worse) headache. The colours were all vibratey and shit. I need a more soothing palette for my delicate eyes. My sleep doctor wants to ensure I'm triggering my internal clock correctly--if I can't get out of the house in the morning, spend deliberate time at the computer (I think she says it's a 4:1 efficacy ration) basking in the LCD glow.
However, I think Calvin Klein's summer collection might be 2:1.
Business formal tomorrow at work again. Since they relaxed the degree of business casual of the dress code, I swear there have been more business formal days required. Like we have to keep the average going somehow. I'm going to test a theory and wear a tie. In calming black and grey...
Just almost had a tense conversation with my father, which I guess counts as tense--in effect if not actually tense during. I just managed to phrase everything awkwardly so I had to keep stipulating that I wasn't trying to put him on the defensive, but I just wanted to make sure I wasn't inferring anything about my mother's health, and instead was getting it explicitly from him.
Somehow, it just....part of the issue is not saying "well, she could be acting like she feels well--I totally fake it myself" but feeling it's floating overhead the whole time anyway. And just...gnargh. I don't want to undo whatever effect the ER visit had on me. It's just all been really tense and messy everywhere for the past month or more.