Do overs--I wouldn't sleep with Joe. I would have realized I was math-smart in high school.

I occasionally mull over what my life would be like if I hadn't married Hubby. Despite the clicheness, he completes me, but if I'd known then what life with him would be, I may not have married him.

House~ma, Nora!

I feel good about who and where I am at 31. I'm pretty excited about my 30s, actually.

Would I like someone to pay me to wander around Europe and drink wine in charming cafes? Sure. But until that happens, my current situation's pretty good.

Heh, I feel the same way.

I am terrified of old age, though. I am scared of the loss of physical and mental faculties, and the way people treat old people.

And I feel the same way about this too. But first I'm scared of my parents' and my in-laws' aging, especially since we don't live near either set of parents and don't know when or how that might happen.

M and I were talking the other day about the things we want to do with our lives, and with our parents while they're still active and healthy, and I think we are going to try to walk the Camino de Santiago at some point. (Probably not this summer, though.) My dad and his mom are both pretty physically fit and would get a lot out of a trip like that. And my mom and his dad can hang out in, say, Barcelona with the kid(s) and meet us when we're done!

Yeah, it's because of watching my grandmother's decline, and worrying about both sets of parents' health that I feel the way I do. Although it was always scary, it seems more specifically scary now.

But it's not like I can avoid aging, so I guess I just need to do what I can to improve my health now.

I think we are going to try to walk the Camino de Santiago at some point

Oh, that's really cool. We saw the Cathedral of Santiago de Compostela when we were in Spain, and it's very cool, as is the town itself. Kind of touristy, but less so than some other places we saw (like Barcelona).

I love the idea of the Camino, but I think I would rather walk Hadrian's Wall from the North Sea to the Irish Sea first.

Hubby and I got on the topic of death and dying yesterday. He said something about dying early. I said, "If you're going to start talking like that, I'm going to make you write a will." "OK," he said in a small voice.

This is a huge thing. He has always fought against the idea of a will. It also tells me that his health has been weighing on him. So--how hard is it to do a will without needing to involve a pricey lawyer?

I did enough kinda stupid things that there were no lasting repercussions, but the problem is...I want to keep doing them. Why not? But I just can't get away with that shit anymore.

The thing is I keep finding new things I can get away with. Which is awesome, but also means that I may indeed snap one day and run off to start a life of crime. In fact, the only stupid thing I did that I REALLY regret and wish I could have a do-over on was something I did when I was 40. And even that caused some good changes, so ... wait, nope, I do want a do-over and erase that dumb thing from history.

But it's not like I can avoid aging, so I guess I just need to do what I can to improve my health now.

I'm still clinging to my plan of becoming Vampire Queen of the Universe, but I probably should work on improving my general health. Just in case.

I think we are going to try to walk the Camino de Santiago at some point

I love the idea of the Camino, but I think I would rather walk Hadrian's Wall from the North Sea to the Irish Sea first.

I love both those ideas.

But it's not like I can avoid aging, so I guess I just need to do what I can to improve my health now.

I support this plan.

I love the idea of the Camino, but I think I would rather walk Hadrian's Wall from the North Sea to the Irish Sea first.

Funny you should mention this -- that's the other idea we're bouncing around! Mostly because I recall my dad telling me once that he would like to do that one day. So we'll see which one we end up doing.

There's also a very mountainous walk in the Pyrenees, from the Mediterranean to the Atlantic. Sounds strenuous but fabulous.

Dude, I think you can do it online.