Go Cash!

I guess I'm just scared they will want to leav me some day because I'm not as fun as their dad.

I can almost guarantee that some day they will realize what's really going on and appreciate your good parenting.

Heh, Cashmere. I do find the prospect of immediate need for coherency encourages the brain to start firing those neurons. What's the famous quote about the prospect of imminent execution focusing the intellect excellently?

I recently heard (on NPR?) that neuroscientists are studying how "time slows" when you're in imminent peril, and are leaning to the theory it's not that time perception slows, but that the brain concentrates so hard on noticing everything at those moments that a flood of sensory data that is usually ignored not only gets noticed but evaluated and remembered, hence a half-second fall off a ladder seems like a couple seconds worth of experience.

It was a quick 2 minutes but I think I managed to not sound completely out of it. I'm home already and the kids are still asleep.

I'm going back to bed at some point. School starts tomorrow so this will be our last chance to enjoy the sleeping in.

Stephanie, as a child of divorced parents, I think what you're describing is a classic dynamic, and the kids do in fact appreciate the structure (even if at this age on a subconscious level), and will be able to express that appreciation when they grow up. (We used to spend the whole drive back from my father's bitching to my mother about how horrible everything was there, which might have been even worse for her, poor woman. So, you know, at least they are not miserable?)

Somebody convince me this is not really Sunday?

Thank you all. I wrote a long LJ post on everything and feel somewhat better just having gotten it out. My therapist used to always talk about knowing things in your head vs. your heart and I guess in my head I know I'm a good mom but in my heart, it's scary.

Cash, were you talking about roller derby? This has nothing to do with anything, but I've been meaning to tell you that I drove past Stevens Point this summer on the way to/from my great-grandparents' and sort of thought hello in your direction.

Thanks, Stephanie!

And because I never tire of derby, we skated at a festival on Saturday and I got this nice picture in which my skating form looks really good:

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Yes, the interview was about derby. I'm in the middle of a PR push for our upcoming bout on Saturday.

What's the famous quote about the prospect of imminent execution focusing the intellect excellently?

According to Boswell, Samuel Johnson said, "Depend upon it, sir, when a man knows he is to be hanged in a fortnight, it concentrates his mind wonderfully." It is frequently quoted as "The prospect of being hanged focuses the mind wonderfully."

(Who is surprised I answered that question? I love Johnson.)

My half-sister is an annoying person, inclined to tell mountainous dramatic stories about molehills, but she was bounced between two parents who didn't care much about her. My mother seemed to care about her welfare much more than either of them. I don't really have a point here, except that going between parents who love their children and care about them, however fraught with good parent/bad parent issues, has got to be better for them than that.

Footage is up.

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It helps that the internet director for the station is a skater on the league!

Argh. My fucking cat (love you, Homer!) has been peeing everywhere and won't take his pill again! Over the past couple of days, he's become a genius at tonguing it out after I think he's swallowed it. Gross. I have got to get better at this.

I wonder if maybe there once was a cat here, and not in my old place (or at least not since they refinished the floors), because he was SO MUCH better about peeing there.