I start therapy today. First time in years. I'm terrified.

Here's to establishing a good therapeutic relationship. May it go well for you.

Teppy, that is frustrating. I hope she does not put you off any further.

Ginger, lots of oncologist-happily-reassuring-that-it's-nothing~ma.

What sumi said, Ginger. Fingers crossed it's just an anomalous reading of some kind.

What Andi said. Lots of healing and health to my lovely Buffistas.

Yeah, Ginger, my mom has a yearly appointment with hers. And, Tep, I just meant to say that if I borrowed something like that, I'd get it back to the person, not that you wouldn't want it back after she is done.

And, Tep, I just meant to say that if I borrowed something like that, I'd get it back to the person, not that you wouldn't want it back after she is done.

No, I got that. I was just...rambling, I guess.

Could that be it? Is she chicken to tell you she damaged it? People have done that to me before. I hate it, but I hate teasing it out of them more.

Aims, therapy is a yay! It can hurt at first, but it generallly has helped me so much.

Well, it's almost March and she hasn't made any effort to get it back to me. DAMN, when you are the person who borrows the thing, you make a goddamn effort to return it in a timely manner.

THE GUILT, THE GUILT, IT BURNS! I am getting those corsets back to Buffistas next week if it kills me. I SUCK when mailing stuff! I am so sorry!!!

(And I know Tep's post wasn't aimed at me; no sweat. But I am AWFUL about this, and that's gotta change. ARGH.)

For Teppy:

I have a low red blood count with the associated hemoglobin and hematocrit, so the first suspect is anemia. However, I have an increased reticulocyte count and normal iron and ferritin, so I'm making red bloods cells and don't have traditional anemia. The usual culprit then is intestinal bleeding, but my fecal occult blood test came back negative. This indicates bleeding elsewhere, which is a symptom of several cancers. Therefore, my PCP referred me to the oncologist.

My oncologist, the elf who was with me through the whole stage IIIB breast cancer, has retired and was last heard from in the wilds of Brazil. I've been assigned to a new oncologist whom I've seen once. He seemed fine, but when I called for an appointment this morning, he didn't have anything for five weeks. However, a different oncologist had an opening tomorrow, so I took that. That could be premature, because they might want more blood tests or to wait a few weeks and try again, but there's the panic factor.

my mom says that once you have cancer, you never really lose the feeling of "Could be cancer...OMG!" she goes to the doctor for things she might have "walked off" in the past. Tep, I guess "Corset" did send me to a Scarlett place, kinda. I've never worn one.

Sending you loads of ~ma, Ginger.