The painful timing of Maria's loss reminds me of one of my 'oh so Laura' ways I dealt with losing Stephen. I was determined not to remember the date. This was possible because of mind like sieve, but really tough because of the insane number of times I had to write the date on forms and such. Every time I wrote the date I thought, "I won't remember this." Probably I have the dazed grief stricken brain to thank, but I managed to forget the date. I know the month and year. It has been 25 years and I certainly think of him often, and always on his birthday and special anniversaries, but never on the date he died, because I don't know what it was.
And not surprisingly, almost no one in meat space knows that. My husband, mom, and sisters. And Buffistas.
Yeah.
Sometimes, i can randomly tell you how many days it's been since either my dad or my Nana passed. It can't do it all the time, but every once in a while, the maths do themselves.
Death is a huge, sucking hole in your life. I say this all the time. Probably too many of you have heard it from me, already. You learn to navigate around the hole, but every once in a while you slip in. And then there are the times you throw yourself in the hole. There's no way out, but through, blah blah pain cakes.
sj! That is really cute. I gotta say I really love the dog peaking in the patio window. I have to remember that one when I take pictures to sell my house.
Thanks! The dog in the pictures is less appealing when you have allergies. The basement rug definitely needs to be professionally cleaned, it smells like wet dog.
sj, what a beautiful house.
Thanks.
You'd pay twice the asking price, out here. All of my crossable parts are crossed for you!
Which is why we're staying here, rather than moving closer to where TCG works, where we can afford next to nothing.
The house looks good and easy to navigate, sj. I particularly like the kitchen. The current owners are fond of the intense colors, aren't they?
The house looks good and easy to navigate, sj. I particularly like the kitchen. The current owners are fond of the intense colors, aren't they?
Yes, and most of them are going away. I like bright colors too, just not those.
There are only a limited number of people on the planet who could live with that shade of pink.
I am slowly crawling my way back into the land of the living...so much so that I am actually even 'auditioning' a new four-footed friend this coming Sunday...which is causing massive nerves.
The current conversation reminds me to repeat something I said to a good friend who has been giving me acupuncture treatments to help in my healing process.
Today, we talked about the reasons I'm thinking about taking this dog and my friend said something like, "Well, because you are lonely."
I just smiled, shook my head and glanced at my computer monitor. "Nope. I'm never actually lonely."
I just smiled, shook my head and glanced at my computer monitor. "Nope. I'm never actually lonely."
Truth.
I hope everything goes well with the pooch "audition"!
ION, we are going to a Mardi Gras shindig Friday, and bought masks tonight. I bought 2, because I couldn't decide. I'm leaning heavily towards one, but I'm soliciting opinions: Batman or Batmanuel?
