I know what I think of when I read "brain zaps". I don't remember which medication it was that caused it, but it felt like I could *feel* the neurons firing in my brain. It was a really distracting, disturbing tingling feeling in my head (and sometimes my face) that fired intermittently. I'm glad I'm off whatever that was. It really made me feel like I was going nuts.

It's hard to describe, Kate, but once you've had it you'd recognize the term immediately. It's like, your whole brain freezes up. It's not painful, exactly, but it's a disturbing physical sensation.

So, I gotta say, getting threatened by crackheads is one of my least favorite parts of my job. It happened again yesterday - everyone's fine, we left and won't be working on that property. But uggh.

So, I gotta say, getting threatened by crackheads is one of my least favorite parts of my job.

understandably!

I do not think I've had brain zaps, at least nothing that fits either of those descriptions. I've had my brain empty out unexpectedly, but that's not at all the same thing. More like a brain drain.

Ooh, crackheads are the least favorite part of my job too, congrats! But glad you're all okay.

My laptop fan is making hideous grinding noises again. Sigh. I really want a new laptop, but just affording replacement fans and doing the repair myself is a PITA extra expense.

My laptop fan is making hideous grinding noises again.

Maybe you should stop grinding your coffee beans in there, eh?

maybe it's trying to dirty dance with you.

(...grind... get it.... OK, not one of my best)

I've had something like brain zaps -- if I miss more than two days of Zoloft, I get these intermittent shorting-out sensations that feel a whole damn lot like they're happening inside my brain, and feel a whole damn lot like a very mild electric shock (extremely mild, kind of like the momentary ick you get if you bite on foil when you have metal fillings or retainers). It doesn't even last a full second, but it's amazingly unpleasant.

Oh, ugh, Sean. Have you already tried turning it off and blasting it with a can of compressed air? It's a little appalling how many giant dust bunnies can somehow hide in such a little space with a fan going the whole time.

And, Shir, what everyone said. Write the letter yourself and let the Buffistas edit it, then have her tweak or sign off. Although having Nilly as your back-up plan is nothing short of spectacular.

Oh, friends...

JZ, I may open it up later and see if I can do anything. I may just disconnect it, at least temporarily.

I'm quite speechless.

I came here thinking of a rant, trying to make peace with with it all. I didn't think, for a moment, that I'll find here a course of action.

To say that I'm grateful will be an understatement. You are amazing, kind and generous folks, and I'm very lucky to have you in my life.

Those who offered to review my self-rec - profile addys are good?

Edit: I forgot I was writing this post at 23:51, w/o spellcheck.