I quit. I quit everything. I'm done being this exhausted and depressed and angry and everything.And not having a relationship with my husband and stressed over grades and not being enough of a mom to Emeline. It's too fucking hard and I quit.

I decided last night, for sure, that I was going to take the voluntary layoff. Then I find out today that if I do, my last day would be next Friday and I make so little that I would only get $254/week and only for 10 weeks. And it doesn't appear that I would get any of the federal extensions and noone at the unemployment office can answer any damn questions. So now, it looks like if I get to even stay at my school, I'll have to be in the hell room with an absolute bitch of a techer, toileting 3 year olds who are severly autistic. Kids I don't even have any damn training for, nor quite frankly, any interest in working with.

Oh effing hell, Aims. I don't even know what to say.

What a mess, Aims! Sadly, most aides who work in those situations, also don't have any specialized training.

ugh Aims that sucks way too much.

hmm now have been offered place to stay in Chicago and already know I have job waiting...

Oh effing hell, Aims. I don't even know what to say.

This. I don't have words. I wish I did.

Aims, hon, I am sorry for all of the suckage. I suspect you're being too hard on yourself about the mom thing. I don't know what else to say.

Laga, best of luck as you look for a new place/new job/new state! Scary and exciting.

Oh Aims. I wish I had something helpful to say.

In random things, wtf, why does OKCupid think I am a 94% match with a 27 year old straight boy in Brooklyn who is already seeing someone? And more importantly, why is he visiting my profile??

It's Justin Bieber. You're a lesbian. Duh.

Aims FTW.

It's 8:15 pm. I'm showered and going to bed. For gratitude, all I can come up with right now is that the Pepsodent I bought on sale for $.99 seems to get my teeth really clean.

G'night, Bitches.