{{{bonny}}} I am so so sorry.
smonster
I cried some yesterday when I got the news, and cried again today reading your post. Remember that there are no "shoulds" in grief - you feel how you feel. There will be plenty of time to remember the joy, right now you are feeling the loss, for it is enormous. My heart aches for you.
and Hec
You moved the world on its axis to do everything you could to save him. But it was the right choice to let him go. I am very saddened by your news, and my heart goes out to you.
said it all very well.
You loved Bartleby and he loved you and you honored him.