You got all kinds of learnin' and you made me look the fool without tryin', and yet here I am with a gun to your head. That's 'cause I got people with me. People who trust each other, who do for each other, and ain't always lookin' for the advantage.

Mal ,'Our Mrs. Reynolds'


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[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


askye - Nov 17, 2011 5:18:28 pm PST #3019 of 30001
Thrive to spite them

I saw my new shrink today. He's nice, looks vaguely like my old one AND has an English accent,a lthough I can't place where. And I didn't ask.

I had a lot of nervous energy and the session lasted the full 1 1/2 hours. He asked me a lot of questions and a couple of times commented on how self aware I was about some things. (I'm not self aware of other things it seems). Even though he knew my diagnosis he treated me like I was a "virgin" patient so I got to talk about some things and I think I missed a few of symptoms/problems that used to be really troubling.

Basically it's crystal clear I have bipolar disorder. He's less sure about the ADD diagnosis, but only because he said it's not *that* bad and that people who have the kinda struggles I did growing up tend to have the same kind of problems I was talking about, but it's not ADD so much as having a wonky childhood.

Also he told me something I didn't know about Seroquel. It does cause weight gain, but some people level off with the weight gain, and it's usually about 40 lbs over their starting weight. Which is roughly where I am - (not including the Zyprexa weight gain). So if I stay steady at this it's probably where I'll stay. And I may be able to lose 10 lbs (give or take) but losing 20 or more pounds probably won't happen while I'm Seroquel. I need to exercise and eat right for health but I won't see the weight loss.

He did say I could try other medications if I wanted to and he'd be willing to do that if I didn't want to stay this weight.

And he gave me a prescription for Ambien. He said if I developed a resistance to it he knows a few things we might be able to do. I told me that when left to my own devices I tend to stay up until 2 or 3 am and then sleep for 10 hours. He said if that's what comes naturally to me and my schedule allowed it there was nothing wrong with it.

sorry this is long, I've been kinda processing this all day.


amyth - Nov 17, 2011 5:18:32 pm PST #3020 of 30001
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen

Ugh, Hil, that is so frustrating. I hope you can find some relief soon.

smonster, you're my budgeting heeeero!


smonster - Nov 17, 2011 5:25:29 pm PST #3021 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

askye, sounds like a good first visit. I see a new shrink in a few weeks.

Hil, that is seriously worrying. I really hope you start to feel better soon.

thanks, jen and David and amyth. It's a very different way to live, but there are definitely benefits. I feel a little silly that it's taking me this long to even make these small steps, but I guess it had to get bad enough to make me really, really want to change.


Ginger - Nov 17, 2011 5:42:50 pm PST #3022 of 30001
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda

Hil, has anyone prescribed Albuterol (Pro-Air)?


Hil R. - Nov 17, 2011 5:44:18 pm PST #3023 of 30001
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l

Hil, has anyone prescribed Albuterol (Pro-Air)?

Yep. At first, it would help when I used it when I was having trouble breathing, but the past few weeks, it's done little to nothing.


Burrell - Nov 17, 2011 5:48:28 pm PST #3024 of 30001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!

Happy birthday, Jilli!


Ginger - Nov 17, 2011 5:48:48 pm PST #3025 of 30001
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda

Can you take codeine?


Hil R. - Nov 17, 2011 5:49:37 pm PST #3026 of 30001
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l

Can you take codeine?

Yeah. Any dosage high enough to make me stop coughing also completely knocks me out, so it's only useful at night.


Amy - Nov 17, 2011 5:53:07 pm PST #3027 of 30001
Because books.

Is the steroid inhaler helping? Or maybe you need a preventive inhaler as well as a rescue one for a little while?


Ginger - Nov 17, 2011 5:55:57 pm PST #3028 of 30001
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda

I fail as a doctor.