and you can email m too. But before you do -- is explaining one more time going to get you ire up? or does saying it agian make you start seeing it better

ION, it was supposed to be sunny today! I was going to go for a short walk and get some anti-depression sun.

Yay sun! The universe at least owes you some decent weather.

Strix, feel free to email too if you want but I would like to offer some suggestions about the other stuff.

Can you doctor give you samples of the cream? It may already be too late since you are on steroids and need to taper them off but I am surprised the doc didn't have samples lying around.

BTW, if you need a nap even 30 min helps especially if you nap before like 4 pm

I have nothing particularly special to say but Strix, I'm sorry you are dealing with all this. I'm sending peaceful vibes your way.

It was raining hard at my house this morning so I left early but it's not raining (yet) in Denver so I'm 30 minutes early with no key to get in the office. Thankfully the wifi works so I'm enjoying a quiet few minutes to myself.

beth, that's a good thought, but the more I talk about it, the more the poison leeches out, and the better a perspective I gain. I don't want to go around feeling angry at D and the two weeks I didn't talk about it -- I was so angry I couldn't -- I just downward spiralled into a really black-dog kennel.

Laura, when I got up today, the weather channel said SUNNY all morning and afternoon! And then at 7, it's like WHOOPS! Overcast and thundershowers later. Still going to take a walk, and do some light yoga, but MY THERAPY PLAN NEEDS SUN, DAMMIT!

I asked about a sample, le nub, but the doc didn't have it, and neither did the first pharmacy I went to. And since it's $40 with my health insurance and we have $55 till the 15th, oh, well. But it's clearing up,; hardly itches any more. I REALLY think whatever it is (waiting for cultures) it was exacerbated by stress. HUGE stress.

Strix, I'm late to the party, but if you want another ear, I'm here.

Also, Prednisone is one fantastic but fucked up drug. It is very effective for what it does, but for me, it also dials my emotions up to 11. PMS on crack is how I usually describe it. Which certainly doesn't help when there are other stressors.

Even without sunshine, being outside is good for your soul. Work has been crazy for me lately and when I'm about to throw my computer, I try to remember to get up, walk outside for a few and then get back to it.

I'm going to go for a walk about 1 or 2, when it's a mite warmer. I'm going to have to start easy, since my Black Dog for the last 6 months has really taken my endurance and muscle tone away.

I haven't noticed anything on the 'sone, but I also just amped my AD, so I feel speedy yet tired. I'll totally take that over the itching and pain; I cut my fingernails to the quick Friday so I would, yanno, NOT scratch my goolie and neck bloody! The rash feels MUCH better, and it's drying and not spreading any more.

Would someone please come to my house with a cleaning crew, a hot tub and a masseuse? That would be fantastic! C'mon...!

Strix, I'm sorry you're continuing to have to deal with so much. I'm around for the next several hours if you want someone else to e-mail.

Gronk. I didn't sleep well last night, and no house elves showed up to make my tea this morning.

Have I mentioned lately y'all be da bomb? Because you are!

sj, I am going to process stuff, and clean for a while, but I may write later.

And I will happily be your tea elf if you will fold my laundry and put it away!