Maria, what everyone else has said. The universe has dealt you such a shittastic hand over the last couple of years. And, of course, it's the universe. It doesn't care about how much better you deserve, and none of us can make it change for you. I wish there were more of us closer to you so we could at least be truly present for you, but we're here as much as we can be, reading and listening and carrying you in our hearts. We know you well, and we love you fiercely.
Just call me the computer whisperer.
Willow ,'Lessons'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
JZ - Nov 08, 2011 8:16:55 am PST #2443 of 30001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
JZ - Nov 08, 2011 8:19:38 am PST #2444 of 30001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
And Matt, always, always the best of thoughts to your good, witty, creative self, and I'm in awe that you had the wisdom and the instinct for self-preservation to do what you needed to get yourself the help you needed. All possible continued healing and recovery~ma to you.
Beverly - Nov 08, 2011 9:11:56 am PST #2445 of 30001
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.
Points to what the sickie said, 'cause she used the words to communicate what I'm feeling.
How you feeling today, JZ? Any better?
JZ - Nov 08, 2011 9:19:36 am PST #2446 of 30001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
Better, thanks. Still home (when I called in sick this morning, my co-worker didn't even recognize my voice, it was so foggy and froggy) but hopefully going in tomorrow. Though I do have to get dressed at some point today and drag my ass out to vote (preferentially-ranked-choicedly!).
P.M. Marc - Nov 08, 2011 9:20:12 am PST #2447 of 30001
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear
Maria, much love and strength, no matter what.
beth b - Nov 08, 2011 9:47:34 am PST #2448 of 30001
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
I'm sorry Maria
Cass - Nov 08, 2011 10:32:25 am PST #2449 of 30001
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.
You are in my thoughts, Maria.
Laura - Nov 08, 2011 10:48:44 am PST #2450 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
Skipping and skimming by to the end.
{{Matt}}
{{Maria}}
Many loving strength filled thoughts headed your way.
Nora Deirdre - Nov 08, 2011 11:51:54 am PST #2451 of 30001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)
{Maria} and {Matt}. Ugh, my words are inadequate.
sj, I will tell you what I wish someone had told me before we bought our house: you don't have to buy a house! It's a lot of.money that you may never see again and also a general money pit and bundle of stress. See if you can rent a house or get into a better rental situation. Or not. I just want to say that don't think that because you have to move, you have to buy something. I don't want to stress you out or seem unsupportive, but I think that the homeownership ideal myth of adulthood and happiness is bullshit. I wish i'd never fallen for it.
Barb - Nov 08, 2011 11:57:34 am PST #2452 of 30001
“Not dead yet!”
Poking my head back in after far too long wrapped up in my own universe to offer many hugs, especially to my darling Maria and to Matt, many thoughts that you'll find some equilibrium and sj, a steadying peace through the coming months.