Thanks, sj and P-C. I really try to be grateful for what I do have, but there are certain things that make me petty still. I'm trying to change it, but you can see how successful I am with that.
Pretty cool except for the part where I was really terrified and now my knees are all dizzy.
Willow ,'Never Leave Me'
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Maria - Nov 06, 2012 6:52:16 am PST #22397 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Strix - Nov 06, 2012 6:56:30 am PST #22398 of 30001
A dress should be tight enough to show you're a woman but loose enough to flee from zombies. — Ginger
Maria, love, I don't think those feelings are petty at all.
sj - Nov 06, 2012 6:59:20 am PST #22399 of 30001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
Maria, what Strix said.
DavidS - Nov 06, 2012 7:02:06 am PST #22400 of 30001
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
I'm sorry, Maria, that's so painful.
If it's okay, I'm still going to hold out hope that you become a parent because I think you'd be so very good at it. I think you have a lot of love that you could lavish on a child.
Zenkitty - Nov 06, 2012 7:06:59 am PST #22401 of 30001
Every now and then, I think I might actually be a little odd.
I'm sorry, Maria. I agree with Strix, your feelings aren't petty.
Burrell - Nov 06, 2012 7:18:02 am PST #22402 of 30001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Oh Maria, your feelings are your feelings and they are real. And they aren't petty, but I do know that those feelings can make you feel that way. Any way you can find to lighten your burden is a good thing.
askye - Nov 06, 2012 7:24:16 am PST #22403 of 30001
Thrive to spite them
(((Maria))
ChiKat - Nov 06, 2012 7:30:56 am PST #22404 of 30001
That man was going to shank me. Over an omelette. Two eggs and a slice of government cheese. Is that what my life is worth?
{{Maria}} Your feelings are real and not petty.
If it's okay, I'm still going to hold out hope that you become a parent because I think you'd be so very good at it. I think you have a lot of love that you could lavish on a child.
I'd like to hold on to this hope for you, too.
ChiKat - Nov 06, 2012 7:34:23 am PST #22405 of 30001
That man was going to shank me. Over an omelette. Two eggs and a slice of government cheese. Is that what my life is worth?
And in news about periods in a different sort of way....
I had a dream last week that I was visiting my mom for Thanksgiving (which I never do). In the dream, I said something about how something was weird or off (I can't remember exactly). My mom responded with, "Well, that's to be expected since you're pregnant."
I immediately woke up in a cold sweat and started doing the math. I thought I was fine and it was just a dream, but you know how those things linger in your brain.
Yesterday, after 9th period, if someone had walked by the staff restroom, they might have heard a relieved, "Thank God!"
Maria - Nov 06, 2012 7:55:13 am PST #22406 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
This is why the only thing I'm grateful for during this god-forsaken time of enforced cheer and gaity is my family and all of you.
Now that I have some time and distance, I'm also seeing how toxic our relationship was in certain respects. It makes me even sadder, because we both could have been happier. I miss him very much, but I'm realizing I started shutting the door on us even before he died. I think he did too, and neither one of us did anything about it.