Friendship is not service without civility.

This is very important and true. I'm glad you cut ties with her, Bonny.

I have gas, which gives me hot water, and heat, and cooking! I've put together a lamp for the bedroom. Pulled all the nails from the walls. Patched all the holes I could reach. Talked to a couple neighbors. Discovered the guy who is parking in my outdoor spot has always swapped outdoor spots with the owner of this unit, since he lives in other building, and his spot is at my front door. SCORE!! Found the hot tub, sauna, gym, mailbox and rec room. played ping pong with mom for a few minutes. Am pooped. So much to do!!!

"You need new friends!"

Word. You need some reciprocity in your life, my dear. I hate that people see your beautiful heart and giving soul and take advantage (consciously or because of their own damage).

And by the way, you are a BADASS for handling that situation so forthrightly and with such integrity. You are such a wonderful role model for me.

Hotel scheduled for demolition in a week or two is on fire in a big way downtown - [link]

his spot is at my front door.

Score, indeed!! This is the Universe saying Welcome Home Dude, This is where you belong.

Congrats.

bonny,

as I understand it, you were probably shaking due to adrenaline. that's what happens to poker players.

have peace after your decision. I know it was not easy.

Word. You need some reciprocity in your life, my dear. I hate that people see your beautiful heart and giving soul and take advantage (consciously or because of their own damage).

Aw. Thanks Hon. You are so sweet.

I do think that I need to figure out what _I_ am doing to inspire this behavior. That's two very similar situations in the last 6 months or so. I don't mean that in a 'It's my fault,' sort of way, but in a 'hm. If this is a trend, there is a catalyst. What might that be?' sort of way.

Thanks for the compliment to my badassery. I find it really hard not to face things head on...they live in my brain MUCH bigger and louder and more painfully...when I don't. So, it seems less courage than self-defense. BUT, I will take the pat for integrity. That particular virtue is pretty important to me.

that's what happens to poker players.

No kidding? That makes total sense to me.

And thanks, le n. I know it is the right thing to do. Otherwise, I would be continuing our friendship with a black stain on my heart. Still, there used to be parts I really liked and I'll miss them.

I swear, I feel like I'm being teed up for some major change in my life. I really want it to be a happy one!

bonny, that took courage! Good for you.

smonster, I'll take lips and ears both!

I feel sick at my stomach all of a sudden, and a rising tide of anxiety that doesn't seem to have any reason to be.

Hotel scheduled for demolition in a week or two is on fire in a big way downtown

Sounds kind of what like happened in my old job of library retrospective conversion (digitizing card catalogs). We had the contract for the national library of Kuwait, and a couple of weeks before we shipped off our people and equipment, Saddam invaded and we got a hurried call saying "Don't come, they just burned down the library."

Not the way you want to clear your schedule.