How are you doing today, Cass?
I'm sorry. You were going to ask me to choose, right? Did you want to finish?
Zoe ,'War Stories'
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Liese S. - May 23, 2012 8:23:49 am PDT #13770 of 30001
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."
Cass - May 23, 2012 8:39:37 am PDT #13771 of 30001
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.
So it seems like fledglings are like teenagers. But anyway, she's healthy and apparently happy, and mom & dad are looking after her. The thing is, if she survives and eventually makes her own nest here, she's going to be the tamest ever, because I've handled her.
It really does. I hope that she does survive and you get to watch many more generations come and thrive.
I'm ... numb. Usually I'm numb. And it feels better than the hurting part. Because I also feel really guilty. Not that I could have kept Kittenish alive, though I probably could have for a little longer. But that I had her boarded for three weeks and that I wasn't with her for both her last good time and more than the very end. That's not something I am sure I will ever not feel guilt about. Mostly I miss her.
Dad isn't getting chemo due to his age. Radiation and continue the steroid therapy. I've been mostly talking to him in the evenings and he sounds alright. Tired and a little confused but motivated and reports of his days are good.
brenda m - May 23, 2012 8:45:47 am PDT #13772 of 30001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
But that I had her boarded for three weeks and that I wasn't with her for both her last good time and more than the very end. That's not something I am sure I will ever not feel guilt about.
Oh honey. You couldn't have known, and you got there when you could. She had you at the end, and all her wonderful life.
I know it's not that easy, by a mile. But I hope you can give yourself some slack.
Atropa - May 23, 2012 8:50:27 am PDT #13773 of 30001
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.
Oh honey. You couldn't have known, and you got there when you could. She had you at the end, and all her wonderful life.
I will keep repeating this as necessary. I will also come down and write it in eyeliner on your mirrors, if I need to.
Burrell - May 23, 2012 8:53:15 am PDT #13774 of 30001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Oh Cass, I wish you didn't feel guilty, but I know that feelings are real even if they aren't always the truth. I hope that your guilt can transform into something else eventually. You were very good to Kittenish.
Sending strength and ~ma to you and your family.
§ ita § - May 23, 2012 8:53:46 am PDT #13775 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
What audio tape was that, Sox? It's not something that comes up, like ever, from non-Jamaicans around me.
hippocampus - May 23, 2012 9:10:55 am PDT #13776 of 30001
not your mom's socks.
Insent, ita ! to your profile addy.
Cass - May 23, 2012 9:37:46 am PDT #13777 of 30001
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.
I will also come down and write it in eyeliner on your mirrors, if I need to.
I'm trying to know this. It's just that - right now - it's not enough.
Atropa - May 23, 2012 9:44:12 am PDT #13778 of 30001
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.
It's just that - right now - it's not enough.
I know. Believe me, I know.
Atropa - May 23, 2012 9:45:21 am PDT #13779 of 30001
The artist formerly associated with cupcakes.
ION, there is not enough caffeine in the WORLD today. I've resorted to blasting The Misfits through the headphones, but I think the only effect it's having is me muttering along with the lyrics, which is probably unsettling for people sitting near me.