Death is your art. You make it with your hands day after day. That final gasp, that look of peace. And part of you is desperate to know: What's it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that's the secret. Not the punch you didn't throw or the kicks you didn't land. She really wanted it. Every Slayer has a death wish. Even you.

Spike ,'Conversations with Dead People'


Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Liese S. - May 11, 2012 2:15:17 pm PDT #13060 of 30001
"Faded like the lilac, he thought."

I would totally pet your hair and I totally feel your pain. I am freaking out because I bought twenty dollars worth of nail polish during this last trip. Twenty dollars! And it came out of my budgeted spending money. It was fine.

But I feel like we're always behind the 8 ball, and the SO is working what amounts to three jobs, and he doesn't see an end to it. But there has to be. We can't keep up like this indefinitely.

And I know we're super lucky, and I love that we've been able to build this house and live in it for four years. I love that we're able to do work we love during a time when people don't have work at all. I'm not complaining.

But I can definitely relate to how damn tiring it all is.


smonster - May 11, 2012 2:21:03 pm PDT #13061 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

We could paint our toenails and... not braid each others' hair because it's too short!

I love that we're able to do work we love during a time when people don't have work at all. I'm not complaining.

But I can definitely relate to how damn tiring it all is.

Yes, this. I know I am living with the consequences of my choices (financial irresponsibility in the last ten years, taking lower paying jobs instead of being miserable, moving while unemployed) and I love my new job, and it does have decent earning potential eventually. I'm just tired right now.


le nubian - May 11, 2012 2:21:21 pm PDT #13062 of 30001
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."

Nora,

I hope your lawyer will stomp on people's necks!


Steph L. - May 11, 2012 2:21:54 pm PDT #13063 of 30001
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine

But I feel like we're always behind the 8 ball, and the SO is working what amounts to three jobs, and he doesn't see an end to it. But there has to be. We can't keep up like this indefinitely.

Something like this has been circling around the corners of my brain for a month or so now. I can hardly articulate it, because I haven't let it come to the forefront of the thoughts for long enough to really get it together into a big picture.

So, I'll just say -- I'm in this boat, too.


omnis_audis - May 11, 2012 2:25:31 pm PDT #13064 of 30001
omnis, pursue. That's an order from a shy woman who can use M-16. - Shir

Skimmed. Should be doing work. Brain is dead. Feel like partial zombie. This secondary gig (helping ND) is wicked cool, wicked complicated, and really making the hamster run at full speed in my head. But the over nights is killing me. Too much caffiene in my system. Got home at 8:30am. Body woke up 2.5 hours later. Really? WTF. Like 6 hours of sleep in the past 72 hours. Thankfully, it's wicked cool, and the producer is super sweet. And helping ND out. But. Tired. If you hear of someone feasting on brains, it was me.

Oh, and casual observation... the times you need good nutrition are the times you don't have time for it, and eat the worst food you can have, which probably doesn't help the situation. Funny, no?


JZ - May 11, 2012 2:38:06 pm PDT #13065 of 30001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.

So, I'll just say -- I'm in this boat, too.

We're going to need a bigger boat.


NoiseDesign - May 11, 2012 2:46:27 pm PDT #13066 of 30001
Our wings are not tired

We can't afford one.


Steph L. - May 11, 2012 2:50:28 pm PDT #13067 of 30001
this mess was yours / now your mess is mine

Dang, I almost smiley-emoticonned that!


omnis_audis - May 11, 2012 2:57:29 pm PDT #13068 of 30001
omnis, pursue. That's an order from a shy woman who can use M-16. - Shir

Well, if we get an island, we *really* need that bigger boat. IJS.


smonster - May 11, 2012 3:00:13 pm PDT #13069 of 30001
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

Dammit, Jim, I'm a carpenter, not a boat-builder!!