{{{{{Maria}}}}} I'm sorry.
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Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Oh, Maria, I'm so sorry.
I'm just so tired of it all. I feel like I've found some equilibrium, and bam, it's gone in an instant. I can't make it stop.
Oh Maria, I am so sorry you have to go through this. I wish I could say that you won't continue to get sucker punched way too frequently, but I won't lie to you. But I can promise you that you will survive and you will be stronger than ever on the other side. I know you have no clue what lies ahead, but it will get easier. I promise.
What Laura said, Maria. Those blindsides are going to come for a little while, I bet, but just take it one day at a time. Just get through this minute, and don't think about anything else right now.
The emotional roller coaster is why they used to give a year for deep mourning in olden days, and even after a year some sign of mourning was worn. I think people were more allowed to be actively upset back then.
Oh, Maria. The sucker punches are the worst. I'm so sorry, hon. I've ended up keening on the kitchen floor from a This American Life episode that reminded me of a crisis several years past, when I just expected light choretime entertainment.
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I just waddled back from the neighborfriend's. I supplied the salad (spinach, lettuce, strawberries, raw broccoli stems - she added some avocado) and vinaigrette, steamed broccoli, and fabulous whole local milk (it's pale yellow, for real); she supplied wine, itty bitty filets wrapped in bacon and grilled, and fresh baked oatmeal choc chip cookies from a mix. SO. GOOD. Who needs fancy shit with food this good?
I also introduced her to Animaniacs, so overall it was a fabulous night despite the insane thunderstorms we've been having for five hours straight. My rain boots may be the single best purchase I've made here. Every time it rains there's a puddle four feet by eight feet, several inches deep, right in front of my gate.
ION, StW is being adorable and kind of flirty (for him) over text. That is all.
Oh Maria, I'm so sorry. I wish there was some way for us to shoulder some of the burden for you.
ION, StW is being adorable and kind of flirty (for him) over text. That is all.
Fun!
Shir! I got the package! Thank you so much. Perfect timing because I will be seeing my mother this weekend for Easter. To share, I asked Shir to collect some small rocks or pebbles for my mom. Mom has always collected rocks from places she visits and I have always brought her back souvenir rocks when I travel. Mom is a devout Catholic and at 90 will never get to collect her own rocks from the holy lands, so I asked Shir for a helping hand. It isn't my religion, but this will bring joy to my mom, and likely tears, so I am most grateful.
Oh. that's lovely, Laura. Shir rocks--literally AND figuratively!