Oh Cash, that's not good at all. Can the hospital recommend a secure board and care? My SiL is in one where they can't leave unless escorted (she would be wandering the streets otherwise). This at least ensures that there's medical staff and security staff present. My in-laws were in no way able to care for her, and this is the best solution all the way around for us.

I think so. But I'm very particular about what I'm called. Refusal to accept my choice of name bothers me.

Yeah. Answering to Allie really bugs the shit out of me. I'm having a "this is the name i use on credits and this is what i am inviting you to use as a familiar" thing.

I usually think it's a thing where when people sign something with a nick it's an invitation to reply with it. I don't know what makes me feel odd doing it in some places. I can't call Steven Chu "Steve." He has a nobel. But that's how he signs his emails. You're going to have to be Dr. Chu.

Cash. Oh I'm so sorry this is happening.

Jesus, Cash.

Luckily people don't fuck with my name to my face except two. One gets a pass because she's just...she's her. The other is a disrespectful bitch.

I told a developer here that I wanted to add an exclamation point to my name, and he took it in the spirit it was offered. I am glad. Then he suggested I change my name to a SQL statement. DROP TABLE USERS. Booyah. It's nice to be understood.

I sort of have the opposite problem re: my name; the full form, which is on every document ever -I don't know if I'd even realize someone was referring to me if I heard it. I've always gone by a diminutive form. I've had some teachers and professors who just would NOT ACCEPT THIS and it drove me insane.

I had an argument with someone recently that ita was your actual name.

Him: No it isn't! It's a nickname!

Me:...

Lots of ~ma, Cashmere. That's an awful lot to deal with.

As for the not-mentioning, I've been driving Zipcars for errands for a while, but I try to limit it, because I have such a superstitious relationship with driving at this point. Even my neurologist said that's it's all about my fear of driving at this point (and, well, money) but when I told him how many close calls I'd had with seizures and driving years ago (before my seizures were as well- controlled) he admitted that my fears weren't totally irrational.

I guess I've just never completely gotten over having seizures in the first place: losing consciousness with no warning, no auras, and waking up later, with memory loss, sometimes injuries...it totally changed my perspective on what my body was capable of, and what I have control over. But really, all the experts say it's okay to drive, and I'm just limiting my life at this point, and making myself a PITA to others. (Thanks for all the rides, friends, btw)

Uh, is that someone who knows me? Evidently he needs to be introduced to the idea of people named nicknames, because my parents were totally in that groove. At which point...name. It's like magic.

Cash, apparently the ScarJo pictures are definitely real. I have no nude pictures on my phone. Of anyone. I feel behind the times.

He named a moon after you.