So, I was planning to keep this quiet for a little longer, but between today's conversation and the hormones doing a number on my brain tonight and my DH being out tonight, I feel the need to spill:
I'm pregnant, and it's way early (will be seven weeks on Friday), so I guess I'll still hold off on the "official" Beep Me post until at least after our first doctor's appt (end of Sept), but I'm feeling like I need to talk about it because, while it is exciting and wonderful and very much wanted, it's also FREAKING ME OUT, and bringing up all kinds of disappointment and sadness about how we're still living so far away from most of our good friends and our families, and we really might be here for ages because who knows when the hell M will have a shot at a decent job in the Northeast, and we just moved to a new house in a new neighborhood and everything just feels so weird and unfamiliar and I am desperately homesick for Massachusetts and my mom, and also sick in general, because this morning sickness shit is kicking my ass.
(flea, I spilled the beans to Teppy earlier this week, but this is why we won't be coming to Cincy this weekend after all! I'm pretty much glued to the couch these days and can't really fathom doing all the walking around and exploring and eating that I would want to do. I'm sad that we'll miss seeing you!)
I wondered how you were doing with this conversation, Kate.
Aw, Kate, sorry it's keeping you down, but only...months to go? Then! Magic babby!
I should have pie.
(Also, I'm sure I don't have to say this, but just in case: no mention of this on Facebook, please! Our families and a few friends know, but most people don't, and we'd like to keep it that way until the end of the first trimester.)
Congratulations, Kate! But I'm sorry you're sick and homesick.
Oh, Kate. It's usually all those things! Exciting and terrifying and nauseating and wonderful. A lot of what you're feeling can probably be blamed on hormones, or at least the degree to which you're feeling them, but I totally get how hard it can be. When I was pregnant with Ben in Wyoming, I was terrified, and he was my *second* baby.
But yay!
I wondered how you were doing with this conversation, Kate.
Heh. I wondered if you were wondering!
I've actually really enjoyed reading this conversation, and it's helped me to gain some perspective on my own thoughts about being pregnant and, you know, imminent baby! Which is to say, I obviously really really want this kid, and M does too, but DAMN, it is scary to think about how much our lives are going to change, and just strange to think that, barring misfortune, this is really happening and there's no stopping it now.
Kate and M are going to be remarkable parents. Can't wait!!!!
it is scary to think about how much our lives are going to change
Minion! Short, sticky minion!
