Lilah ,'Just Rewards (2)'
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, nail polish, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
I revisit past did-I-really-do-that's?! for no reason so I know how it goes. If I wanna cringe, I can remember something needlessly stupid that I did and feel bad all over again.
Sometimes those things attack me too. I try to comfort myself by remembering that no one else will remember the things I'm embarrassed about.
Late at night, when I am super tired or at any other similar point when I am feeling extra fragile. Hungry, hormonal, stressed. Good times.
I did one thing in college that really makes me nauseous when I think about it now. It's one of my biggest "OMG I can't believe I did that, I am such a shitty person" moments.
Ryan recognises pandas in two languages! (Incidentally, the Chinese for giant panda is 'big bear-cat'.)
He really is a big bear cat. (Pablo Sandoval, Giants 3baseman. Who just hit a go ahead double.)
[Hec, it's too bad you're not on Facebook - that's where I do my watch-n-post for beisbol.]
It's too bad you're not at Chez Zmayhem so you could high five and run around the living room.
I hate those seriously introspective moments. I wish I could be oblivious to the shitty things I've done in the past. But then I remember that knowing they were shitty makes me a better person in the future.
They're our existential Marty McFlys.
I pretty much feel cringey about my entire life. I think I've made nothing but bad decisions.
Glad to know I'm not the only one who still cringes over stupid shit I did 30 years ago.
Amen. I have some strongly remembered cringes from high school.
I pretty much feel cringey about my entire life. I think I've made nothing but bad decisions.
You need a new system. Maybe switch to the I Ching?
How's that now?
Retrospective cringing just means you have an internal moral compass that's well-calibrated.*
I do like Mr. flea's 5-year rule, though.
*(This is also how I've rationalized my extreme trauma reactions to scary/torture porn/horror movies. Or, really, just the descriptions of them, as I truly can't watch them. The descriptions alone are enough to genuinely traumatize me like something actually happened to me. The first time I was dumb enough to Wikipedia the Saw movies, I honestly was upset literally every waking moment for like a month. Not like I was walking around weeping, but even when I was working or reading or whatever, there was a constant tape loop in the back of my head going "[insert scene of insane awfulness] -- HOW COULD SOMEONE DO THAT OH MY GOD WHYWHYWHY?!?" I could. not. stop. thinking about those stupid movies.
No, really. I understand it's not a normal reaction, but you know what? Fuck it. At least I know it means I still recognize bad behavior.)
t edit That said, when I saw the trailer for the spoof of those movies (was it called Scary Movie?), with the scene of -- I think -- Shaq telling Dr. Phil that he cut off the wrong hand, I laughed for about 5 minutes. Dr. Phil is just inherently funny to me.
t edit again Oh, hi, welcome to My Issues. I should have led with that.