I've been way too productive working from home. I think it is guilt that motivates me.

But the soundtrack of a cat pleading to go out and another who wants my lap, loudly, and the toxic gas cloud the 3rd produced....yeah. Plus it is hard for me to NOT straighten up around the house.

Also, my laptop does not like sharing the network with my work computer. Or something. It's being weirdly slow online.

Sleep doc says I'm catching up on my sleep debt, which is why I feel like ass, I'm to take the dosage down 25mg, and take it three hours before bedtime.

I really kinda hate your doc.

I like Seche but it seems to not work for me with Nubar polish. Yet does with others that should also be less mixy. I just have to remove my polish when I notice the very first chip or flake so I don't peel layers off of my nails.

I am going to get some of the Diamante next time I do a Nubar order.

Once I use up my Poshe, I am not getting more. It's been cranky on me the last several times I've used it.

I thought sleep dep was bogus. But apparently that's why I can't drive. This fucking better not happen tomorrow too, even with her modified dosage.

Also, the low blood pressure is my fault for not hydrating enough. Also, I need to eat protein with my pills

This is tiresome.

I thought sleep dep was bogus.

From everything I've read and been told, sleep dep exists. But you can't just magically refill it. It's not like you can sleep less for a while and make up the time. You can start getting good sleep, but there's no magic pot that is finally filled up and you are okay.

I really hate her.

Especially since that same drug knocked me on my ass. Literally a couple of times. I felt like I was tranq'ed and it wasn't like I was getting awesome sleep either.

Grrrr.

You DO have to keep hydrated and eat protein. That is all.

The idea that I was so staunchly sleep deprived from Ambien, and that this is working (I told her I barely slept any of the nights, but she's adamant it's working) and that this drug will let me reach back to the bad, bad times and even them out--not yet substantiated.

She's very dismissive. I'm not sure being able to get in touch with her is even a better thing. Because if I couldn't, I would have switched back to Ambien tonight.

I am skeptical of doctors who insist that your experience is not as you describe it.

You DO have to keep hydrated and eat protein. That is all.

Yeah, but since her magical mystery drug, I can't keep down food that has any flavour. Special K and Persian bread is what I ate over the weekend. It could be coincidence, but I haven't had nausea this bad for way over a year.

She didn't tell me how to fix the nausea. Just that I should eat through it.

So, no, that is not all. I'd rather address the cause than the symptom.

Hydration important. Eating well also important. You know what is also super important for humans? Sleep. And I suspect that many of these doctors have never dealt with really chronic insomnia. They've had a night or two where it was hard to fall asleep maybe or they got an hour or two less than ideal for them. But they've never gone through life after days and days of no sleep or barely any sleep. There's a reason that sleep deprivation is used as a torture device.

extended use of Seche made my nails peel like crazy.

ACK! I have peeling issues. Perhaps I should try the Diamont. or go back to Poshe. The Poshe is especially good for refreshing my polish.