Oh my god, y'all. I was having a meltdown today anyway

I am right there with you. I was crying so hard and for so long earlier that I actually left a puddle on the bathroom floor. I wouldn't have believed it, except Tim called me in to see it.

Wow, so much of the gang is still here! I was rescuing a box of books from the garage when I found Will the Vampire People Please Leave the Lobby? (And I still have a Buffistas.org Cafe Press mug.) Allow me to say thank you to you all for your friendship in what was a very fragile and strange time in my life. Buffy fandom and you people changed my life and I think also saved it in many key ways. I am grateful to your wonderful, funny, wise and so so shiny selves. Love, ~jengod

{{hugs}} everyone

People, there is no shame in backing away from the things going on the world. I don't want you leaving puddles on the floor.

Oh jengod, it's nice to see you.

I am vaguely reassured that other people are also in a fragile states, given my own broken/fragile/no-good headspace. I'm glad to know it's not just me.

I'm glad to know it's not just me.

I have never been so broken, and am staring down what could potentially be a year of hell starting next week. No matter what shakes down, it's going to be a BIG strain on my relationship getting through it.

{{HUGS}} to all. Good night.

Steph, I should clarify. I'm not happy that anyone is feeling sucked into the rabbit-hole of despair. But I have been drowning this week and have felt pretty isolated and alone and overwhelmed. I keep feeling like it is just me.

Steph, I should clarify.

Oh, I wasn't saying that as a rebuke (as in, "How DARE you say you're glad it isn't just you?!?"); I was just elaborating, as is my wont. I'm also glad to not be alone in this unbelievable, stress, although I wish SO MUCH that none of us had such overwhelming stresses. And it is definitely not just you.

I am grateful to your wonderful, funny, wise and so so shiny selves. Love, ~jengod

jengod! t tacklehugs