I am forever grateful that my doctor decided a possible dependency on sleep meds is preferable to chronic sleep deprivation.

Makes perfect sense to me. And what I don't get is -- why is Remeron okay in his eyes, but not Ambien? Remeron is a sedating drug, and it's an antidepressant (which I don't want), and it causes weight gain (which he doesn't want to see happen). Ambien? Just helps me sleep.

And I'm no dummy when it comes to drugs. I get that it can cause dependence, but if it's helping a legitimate medical condition, and the patient is okay with possible dependence, then who the fuck cares? That's like doctors who won't prescribe adequate pain meds for patients with chronic pain because they "don't want the patients to become addicted." Well, fuck that. It's chronic goddamn pain. Key word "chronic." It's not going away. So if it's not going away, then why not help your patient to have a decent quality of life with adequately managed pain?

Same thing with insomnia. Damn.

t /ranty-pants t But seriously. Refusal to manage patients' chronic pain is fucking malpractice in my opinion.

I've been productive today.

I am doing all kinds of onerous tasking this week. But still just digging myself out of the backlog with a ways to go yet.

And you even see that shit with people talking about terminal patients. It's unconscionable.

Steph - Will and I ate at The Alchemist. It was yummy as ever.

My sleep is all messed up. It takes me forever to fall asleep at night and if I don't take my Seroquel I either don't get sleep or sleep really lightly and wake up. So I'm dependent on it. Any sleeping pills I've tried I've developed a resistance too and the dr took me off when the dosages were deemed too high.

I wish I had my Mom's ability to fall asleep in minutes.

I have a neighbor finally. She seems nice, I think she's a nurse that works a 3-11 shift. Means I'll have to share the porch and also be more mindful of leaving the door open and allowing the cats out here.

Erin has made an incredible resume for me! And I found a job I really wanted to apply for. Receptionist in Burlington, decent hours, decent pay, benefits after 3 months. So fingers crossed.

There's a new yarn shop in town, inside another shop. I stopped in because I'm trying to crochet and the owner is really nice. In September she's going to start knitting nights and try to do some classes so I may learn to knit.

Steph - Will and I ate at The Alchemist. It was yummy as ever.

Cool! When did you go?

My sleep is all messed up. It takes me forever to fall asleep at night and if I don't take my Seroquel I either don't get sleep or sleep really lightly and wake up.

Tim used to take Seroquel, for years, and he would sleep like the dead. Recently his doctor switched him to Abilify (for reasons I still can't comprehend, including some vague comment about it being helpful for Asperger's -- but maybe I myself am too non-neurotypical to assess whether Tim has Asperger's symptoms or not), and now he has a horrible time sleeping. I feel so bad for him.

I'm so sorry Nora. Sending ~ma to Taz.

And yay Steph on the sleeping through the night without any sleep aids. I've had insomnia issues pretty much my whole life. I'd love to be able to try Ambien or Lunesta or some other Rx sleeping pill, but it's just not possible right now. Melatonin has been a godsend in that it helps me fall asleep within the hour, and I feel like it's safe to take another dose if I wake up in the night and can't fall back asleep.

Well, I spent half an hour on the phone scheduling my cataract surgeries (two - one for each eye ... guess they figured it wasn't a good idea to have me going around with patches over BOTH eyes). Also pre- and post-surgery appointments. Plus I'll need to schedule a physical and EKG with my primary care physician. And clear things with the insurance company.

Vortex, you'd offered transportation help - if you're not working October 24 and November 14, would it be possible to get rides home from the hospital? I can get myself there (and I wouldn't ask anyone to haul themselves to the hospital at 6:00 am), but they require that I have someone "escort" me home. sigh

I was averaging about 5 to 6 hours of sleep a night

Heh. That's pretty normal for me. But it's different when you're just staying up too late. There is very little more despair inducing than lying there unable to get to sleep for hours on end, and I am supremely grateful that it's something I only experience on rare occasion.

In this, I am brenda. This week has been more of a 3 to 4, so it's been bad (probably due to my aching arm) and I've been dragging ass at work. 5 to 6 and I feel great.

And what I don't get is -- why is Remeron okay in his eyes, but not Ambien?

Yeah, I don't get the logic behind it either. I tend to agree with you. If someone NEEDS the drug to sleep, better to get the sleep than to worry about the dependence.

My husband sleeps like the dead. Well, the talking dead. If you "wake" him while he's asleep, he'll talk to you and respond, but it's clear he's still asleep. I am unbelievably envious.

We went last night. Will had to go to Woodstock to drop off some info so I tagged along and saw some great scenery and then on the way back we stopped there.

We both had the Cuban Panini, split the Caeser Salad. Will had 2 beers, I tasted them and I still don't like beer.

I've had insomnia my whole life, my parents asked my pediatrician about it several times. "She'll fall asleep on her own". Which I did, eventually, but I'm going to say growing up most school nights I probably had 5 hours of sleep or less.