Supposedly I'm goign to have insurance and it's going to be retroactive

I *so* feel you. Allegedly our May coverage is reinstated as of today, and so I called CVS Caremark (aka, The Company Holding My IUD Hostage), but they have to verify it themselves and said they'll call me back when they have done so.

Of course I haven't heard back from them, so they're getting a call at 9:00 tomorrow morning.

It is unfuckingbelievable how difficult it is to fix things that go wrong with health insurance.

My brother is an *insurance agent* and still gets caught up in it. Even though you'd think he'd know all the "Say The Secret Word" bullshit that would help.

I haven't handled a lot of these call very calmly or rationally. This whole thing hits me from a real place of fear and panic. Fears of backsliding and not having access to medication and losing the progress I've made. Rationally that's not going to happen. there are options and I'm smart enough and have the help and resources to figure out those options.

So when I get on the phone I start swirling into a panic. However, today I managed to stay fairly calm and not rant and rave and get pissy too much.

I have enough meds to last me through June. Because my prescription is for tablets to be split I have enough refills to last me for a year. I just have to keep reminding myself of that.

Ok, but you can use this thread to reconstruct some of it. Let`s start going back and getting an idea of what was said on what dates.

It's too quiet.

Hey, Liese (or anyone else) - any interest in a bunch of back issues of Orion magazine? I also have about 20 back issues of Bust, and probably the same of Bitch.

Totes! I would happily pay postage for the Orions.

Sweet. Shoot me your address at my profile addy. Should be able to send them media mail, so it shouldn't be much. Damn, I have five packages to send out. I should do some of that tomorrow.

smonster, I would pay postage for Bust and Bitch, as they are On The List of mags I want to eventually pitch to.

I think you know my profile addy...

Huh. I went to Tim's ADHD meeting tonight, because the presentation was on medication in adults with ADHD, and that stuff interests me.

Wellbutrin is often used off-label for ADHD because it's a norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, and norepinephrine is basically the neurotransmitter responsible for vigilance and arousal (not sexual arousal, but arousal in the sense of "I'm awake! I'm WIDE GODDAMN AWAKE AND AWARE OF EVERYTHING THAT MIGHT BE CREEPING THROUGH THE WINDOW TO KILL ME!"). And people with ADHD often have deficiencies in that area -- not so much, I think, with the arousal thing, but more with the vigilance thing -- if you have low levels of the neurotransmitter responsible for being aware and attentive, then of course your attention is going to be diminished.

But really, what I was most struck by (hello to the egoism) was Wellbutrin's clear ability to OVER-amplify arousal and vigilance in people who were already okay on that front.

In other words, it's no fucking surprise that it can give people (and by people, I mean me) insomnia and JACK UP THEIR ANXIETY.

That's (1) super interesting from a nerdy POV, and (2) makes me even more sure that going off it is the right decision. Holy moly.