I am really moderately freaked out. The weird lesion things that my OB/GYN diagnosed as HSV over a month ago (despite a negative culture -- but she said it could have been negative because I had had the symptoms for so long the virus was probably no longer active) has not healed. So it's been giving me trouble for a little over 2 months.

Went back to OB/GYN at some ungodly hour this morning, and she was concerned that it hadn't healed -- although she said it looked a tiny bit better -- and that, looking at it today, it doesn't look like HSV. So she biopsied it (which was, I have to say, REALLY painful) for more tests, including possibly HPV.

I know HPV is common (almost as common as HSV, it seems), but I'm just...freaked out. Partly because I want this to be all gone, and partly because I want to goddamn know what EXACTLY is is, and partly because I don't know what it means in terms of a prognosis.

So. The biopsy results won't be back until Monday, so I'm trying to be chill and failing miserably. And I need to step away from WebMD.

sending you chil ma~~ Steph. As much as i can because i would be in the exact same place as you are.

Ack. Chill is a tall order right now, but I hope you can find it somehow.

And in a way, the really worst part is the killing effect on our sex life. I know there's stuff we *can* do, but having a painful lesion on one's ladyparts for 2 months pretty much makes you feel the exact opposite of sexy.

Monday is a long time to wait. I'm sorry. And boo to unsexy feeling as well.

I'm trying to think who could dress as Desire? Young David Bowie? Annie Lennox?

Juliana. Naturally I have no pictures of this event (Halloween a bazillion years ago), but trust me, it worked.

And I need to step away from WebMD.

Stepping away from WebMD is *always* a good idea.

sj, it's so hard that the path forward is not a straight one. Setbacks suck.

Steph, uggh. I hope they get that diagnosed soon and hope it's something treatable.

You go, Seska.

Liese, I was wishing you were with me on Friday night to see this band: [link] They play mostly if not all covers, but their energy is AMAZING.

I am home sick again. Went in and made it until morning break. I feel assy and weak. I'm eating lentil soup and cheese toast and watching Justified, and then I'm going to bed. This virus is totally kicking my ass. I gotta say, I don't mind dirt and mud and rust, but one of my least favorite things about deconstruction is dealing with (whitefonting for squeamish peeps) dessicated animal corpses . Today we found a cat . Whee.

Steph, aigh. May it be determined to be an easily treatable yuck and you get your sexy back real soon.

I think the politicians who do realize it think they are serving in heaven. The ones who don't probably have no clue that they are reigning in hell.

Well put, WS.

Sorry you're sick again/still, smonster.

Teppy, lots of gentle, ease-of-stress wishes for you, and plenty of ~ma that whatever the results of the biopsy, it yields accurate information. Also some ~ma that it be reasonably easily treated.

smonster, sending out some get-well-soon~ma for you. It seems to me that you have had more than your share of ick.

Thank you for all the supportive posts this morning. It was a nice thing to wake up to. I'm feeling a little less pain this morning than last night, and I have a day off from PT, although I should do some stretches at home.

Teppy, I'm so sorry you're still in pain. I hope you get some relief soon.

Hil, I hope you're having a better day today.

smonster, I'm sorry you're sick again. Feel better.