Skipping to shamelessly post new photos of baby starting here!

Happy baby!

Skipping to shamelessly post new photos of baby starting here!

Such a cutie pie! I love the pictures where you can see his little teeth.

cutie!!

Have we heard from bonny since this am ? Sending the ma~~~~ to bonny , Drew, and newphew.

and luck to spidra and Connie in finding who they need

eta: sorry Sean, I must like you some because I worry about you

Cute photos, Glamcookie!

Sorry to vent again so soon:

My mom's been in this cleaning and fixing frenzy ever since she arrived back home yesterday. She hasn't been here for months and she walked in the door and first thing cleaned out the fridge. Major projects. She's put my two other siblings to work (they get paid) and luckily she isn't bothering me too much as long as I stay out of the common areas of the house.

I was just downstairs giving something to her when I heard her telling my brother he had to re-do a major cabinet hinge fixing job tomorrow afternoon. Just in case there was a full day of major projects, I reminded them that I was having people over tomorrow afternoon. No one listened to/heard me except my sister. I repeated that I had invited people over since it was my birthday (in fact, I asked a month or more ago for permission to do that AND I sent a reminder email to my mom last night about it). Yet another moment when I *hate* being part of such a big family. People think the eldest gets special attention but not in my case. No, just like most of us, I feel like I don't matter because there's plenty more where I came from.

The Dorothy Parker quote was great. Sometimes black humor is all that gets me through.

ETA: okay, clearly I don't know how to whitefont.

Much ~ma to your friend's brother, lisah!

Can't people come over while your brother works? Your gathering isn't in the same room, is it?

Spidra, that's shitty.

Spidra, it might be worth checking with individual providers in your area, to see if they're willing to bill on a sliding scale. My therapist in NJ did.

My therapist here does, too.

I was wondering about bonny, too. I have a number but not sure if it's home or cell... I think I'll try giving her a call.

Left a message.

eta sent an email, too. Going to bed now but will let y'all know when I hear from bonny.

I'm sure we'll manage something. My mom is launching into such major things that I had to remind her unless she started into something that would be so noisy and full of dust that it completely ruined the thing. Plus I need access to the kitchen in order to be able to make food for it. That cabinet hinge job would be in the kitchen.

Today she had my brother out with garden power tools everywhere, digging stuff up, etc. But, really, I'm depressed that when I speak it's like I'm not even there (this is not the first time it's happened) and the fact that she keeps forgetting my birthday. Which is unlike her. It's not like they're playing at this as a joke in order to throw a surprise party.

I know things in my life could be a lot worse than they are now. But I've been dealing with a lot of unexpected stuff on top of the expected stressors and I'm just kinda losing my shit. I'm not as able to roll with the punches. My birthday is always important to me no matter how anti-climactic it usually is. I guess I was looking forward to it as a little respite from what's going on.

I'm sure I'll get to checking in to individual therapists as well. I was seeing someone on a sliding scale for years. But I kinda think individuals aren't going to go as low as I need.