Maria, I'm so very sorry. I wish I had something to say to make it easier, but I don't. I've been there, and it's rough, and miserable, but you will make it through the far side of this. Lean on your friends as much as you can, do anything you need to do to keep yourself sane, and try not to beat up on yourself too much.
Riley: No pulse. Anya: Yup. The space lamb got 'im.
'Never Leave Me'
Spike's Bitches 46: Don't I get a cookie?
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
NoiseDesign - Mar 15, 2011 9:02:06 am PDT #17644 of 30000
Our wings are not tired
ChiKat - Mar 15, 2011 9:02:22 am PDT #17645 of 30000
That man was going to shank me. Over an omelette. Two eggs and a slice of government cheese. Is that what my life is worth?
Wow, I've fooled everyone into thinking I'm strong, including myself. Hello, this is the lie.
That's not a lie. You are strong. And then, sometimes, there are moments you need to lean on people. Doesn't diminish you in the least.
Scrappy - Mar 15, 2011 9:02:36 am PDT #17646 of 30000
Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.
Strong isn't how you feel--strong is what you DO. Feeling overwhelmed or frightened or panicked is normal.
Maria - Mar 15, 2011 9:03:09 am PDT #17647 of 30000
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
And I'm being incredibly selfish by not acknowledging that others are going through some lousy shit right now too. Please know that I am sending you as much strength and love as you've given me.
Beverly - Mar 15, 2011 9:03:35 am PDT #17648 of 30000
Days shrink and grow cold, sunlight through leaves is my song. Winter is long.
Maria, you've had some very wise people tell you that what you're feeling is valid. Believe them. Nobody does well at this, at least not inside where only they can see. You'll find your way to be there for your family, and they will for you.
Teppy, you're an amazing person. I'm glad there is light at the end of the tunnel. And Tim is a wonderful man.
juliana - Mar 15, 2011 9:04:23 am PDT #17649 of 30000
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
Wow, I've fooled everyone into thinking I'm strong, including myself. Hello, this is the lie.
Honey, you are strong. Really, you are. Just because you don't feel it right now doesn't make it any less true. But, sometimes even the strongest people need to lean on someone else for a while, sometimes even the strongest people are completely overwhelmed, sometimes even the strongest people need to let someone else take care of them. It's perfectly natural, and it doesn't make you any less strong. I promise. And I'm so sorry.
DavidS - Mar 15, 2011 9:04:24 am PDT #17650 of 30000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
Wow, I've fooled everyone into thinking I'm strong, including myself. Hello, this is the lie.
It's not weak to want to run away. Actually running away would be. But you have time to sort through this.
As the notion goes, bravery isn't defined by being fearless, but by facing your fears.
Barb - Mar 15, 2011 9:08:14 am PDT #17651 of 30000
“Not dead yet!”
As the notion goes, bravery isn't defined by being fearless, but by facing your fears.
This. Self-awareness doesn't make you weak. It makes you stronger in the long run.
quester - Mar 15, 2011 9:10:46 am PDT #17652 of 30000
Danger is my middle name, only I spell it R. u. t. h. - Tina Belcher.
{{{{{{{Maria & family}}}}}}}}
DCJensen - Mar 15, 2011 9:11:19 am PDT #17653 of 30000
All is well that ends in pizza.
Wow, I've fooled everyone into thinking I'm strong, including myself. Hello, this is the lie.
I've lived my entire "adult" life feeling like this. I don't think it goes away.