I'm still waiting for the mean girls to apologize. Heck, i accepted a couple FB friend requests assuming that was their intention, but not a peep. I forgave them years ago on my own, but it would be nice to get that kind of message acknowledging that they feel some remorse for destroying my self esteem in middle and high school so effectively.

ION, i lost 2 cell phones to unexpected toilet plunges before i started wearing cargo pants. Back when i was painting professionally the only place to put the cell phone during work was in a back jeans pocket. I think we all know how *that* can translate into a sodden phone.

IOON, it's snowing rather heavily here. And the overnight accumulation had *just* all melted from sunshine. (No, really, the sun was shining for a few hours.) Not it's dark like night and the snowflakes are enormous. I think i might have to take a nap. Glad that my yoga class happened during the sunny, melting time, since i'm loathe to go near crowded streets right now. Portlanders do not respond to snow with anything resembling uniformity or sanity.

it would have been better if I had not behaved that way in the first place.

I was teased horribly in middle school and really don't have a problem with any of those kids. They were kids.

I was bullied horribly, too. I totally have a problem with every single one of those kids. They were kids, but so was I, and I wasn't throwing rocks at their heads. I'd really appreciate an apology. I probably wouldn't friend back, but I would feel a lot better for hearing or reading, "I'm sorry for what I did."

It's hard to admit that you did something wrong, and I think it's great that you're making the effort, Scrappy.

They were kids, but so was I, and I wasn't throwing rocks at their heads.

Yeah.

I still have a problem with the girls that were awful to me in school, but that is partly because when I occasionally see them now they can't figure out why I'm not happy to see them, like we should be bffs. If I thought any of them would be self aware enough to know what they did and actually apologize for it, that would mean something.

Oh! And I think I told you guys, but I saw my childhood bully (not an adolescent thing, physical since we were kids) on facebook and declined to friend her. And then later found out that she's still a horrible person as an adult and said all manner of nasty things to my friend who was going through her first of two bouts with cancer. So yeah, not expecting a reconciliation there, and probably wouldn't want one. I was just happy to have trusted my original instincts not to make contact.

"Excuse me, did you ask me something? I was praying."

Connie's comment is my favorite. I almost want to spend a bunch of time in a stall to get the opportunity.

There was one person in particular that was mean to me in HS. He was a family friend so I went to his father's funeral with great reservation. He was overwhelmed to see me and have the opportunity to apologize and we were both very relieved. We were kids, it was history.

I guess I'm just mean, because when the guy who had an affair with EM apologized to me after they broke up, I told him to fuck off and expressed my fervent wish that he get elephantitis of the balls, and a permanent burning rectal itch.

Sounds appropriate to the situation.

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Giles said you don't forgive someone because they deserve it; you forgive them because they need it. Okay as far as it goes. But, leaving aside family and people who you want to maintain or salvage a relationhip with, it's not your job to care about what they need. If it's what you need, and in some cases it may be, that's different.

I wonder if the guys who threatened to kill me, persistently and aggressively, in high school are on facebook. I should look!

there are still a few fluffy snowflakes falling, but now it's so sunny i almost can't watch tv. almost.

The mean girl from my Jamaican high school denies being stank, and swears she always liked me. Which, really, is what I'm mad at. I'm not mad at anyone for what they did to me during school. Just don't pretend as an adult you didn't do it. That's rude. You don't have to bring it up, but don't lie.

I have one person that I really badly behaved to, and...I'm not bringing it up. We've caught up on FB even though we stopped talking in school. We're good. But? If she asked me, I'd admit to my cold behaviour. Which coincided with her father's death. Ouch.