Dude, what the heck? Did one of us commission a cake and not tell the rest of us?

I scooped the pans, took out the trash, prepped my week's pills, walked the dog, and emptied/loaded the dishwasher. Time for bed.

First time she did, I took a leaf out and smoldered it. Just because I could.

Really, Cass? Color me shocked.

I'm amazingly anxious and hostile today. I have fled facebook and the bulk of the internets because I keep dragging out fights with morons. My own personal Bonanza marathon has helped some. I think tonight I'll use half a squirrled away ambien because last night was all anxiety dreams and I have much shit to do tomorrow.

My brain hasn't crapped out on me like this in a good long while and its certainly not the 10+ shit I've gotten in the past. I live with two semi-slovenly straight boys in their twenties so the dishes aren't bothering anyone. It's not so bad really, but I'm ready for it to stop.

In a day or two I'll have some anti-anxiety meds. In less than a month I'll have health insurance for the first time in three years. I can take it, you know?

Dude, what the heck? Did one of us commission a cake and not tell the rest of us?

Apparently the place it's from is in Ann Arbor...Joe? Aimee?? Know anything about this?

Just took me twenty minutes to find my Ambien.

I'll take some comfort in the fact that I am, apparently, too disorganized to ever become an addict.

Wishing you less anxiety, Trudy. That is not fun, and I empathise.

I saw the cake a while back, and promptly demanded it as my wedding cake. "NO," said The Girl. She's no fun.

Cake.

I have a doctor's appointment for this morning. I told them it was urgent, to get an appt today, 'cause The Girl goes to Israel tomorrow and I can't deal with going alone. I hope I don't get into trouble.

Apologies for any possible bringing down of the thread, but this is driving me crazy and furious.

I am watching this (my) fucking country losing all reason, any shred of decency and democracy. [link] (updates in Hebrew, for the selected English translations you have to wait a few days).

An MP seriously suggested today that non-Jews shouldn't be elected to the Parliament. First as a tragedy, then as a farce. Cannot believe this is what's going on. I don't think we'll ever reach fascism - we're too disorganized for that, but ochlocracy sounds like a possible option. Well, that or military theocracy de jure, not just de (twisted) facto.

It truly, truly feels (not just by me, but by a lot of friends) as if we've reached the point of no return.

Edit: and good luck with the doctor's appointment, Seska. It sounds reasonable, at least to me.

Edit 2: done raging. At least for a while. Carry on!

I had to argue with the doctor, who wanted to put me on a different SSRI (I've been on almost all of them, over the years), but he finally agreed to give me Effexor. Anyone here been on it? Slightly worried about a couple of the named side effects - amitriptyline gave me blood pressure problems, and I wonder if this might do the same - but I haven't started it yet, so we'll see. I have to review it with the docs in a month anyway.

Been talking to my employers and they seem to support me in my fight to get a support worker. Hopefully that will help.

Shir, I wish I had something to contribute there. (The Girl is not keen on discussing Israel and politics, so we just don't. So I'm really rather ignorant. Which I shouldn't be.) I hope things change - that the pendulum swings back - if it was ever swung in the other direction.

So I'm really rather ignorant

I wish I could have that privilege. But the news and the ignorance, they're everywhere.

Shir, I mourn with you the loss of democracy in both our countries. America may not have reached the extreme that Israel has, but it seems that there are those in power who are making calculated moves toward the same end.

Seska, still sending out the ~ma for your work situation.

I'm getting ready to go to my first therapy appointment.