I did not want to make anyone feel bad and do not want anyone here to feel that they need to watch what they say to me.
Aw, no. You are the Nicest, after all!
because part of me wants to run and run and run.
See, that part just seems normal to me, because I've wanted to run away from my life for - well, most of my life, until now. The reason I admire the hell out of you is that you *won't*.
Unlike, for example, my aunt, who abandoned her daughter with lupus (and her husband and son as well), ran far away, married a rich man, and never had more children. Her son is her primary caretaker now, as she has dementia, and I know he isn't doing it joyfully. When he says he's doing it because he has no choice, he doesn't mean he loves her too much to abandon her, he means he doesn't have the money to put her in a nursing home.