I think it has really forced me to think about how things are outside of my control and I should stop trying to make things work out perfectly. That there is no perfect. It's forced me to remember that I cannot control what happens, but I can control how I react to these things.
It's also really pushed me to live in a way that embraces the idea that this moment is the only moment that matters. I had started into that philosophy (tantra) but having a sick kid who might die tomorrow in a very realistic way has sort of shoved my face into the idea. I guess it makes me step back and try to enjoy this moment right now even when it is sucky and awful and hard.
I was in the path of a runaway bulldozer/front loader. Very odd watching it roll down an alley in North Beach, curve onto Broadway and then roll towards me. But it kept hooking so I didn't have to dodge it or anything, and the blade rammed into a brick wall taking out a chunk. But I was a good 20 feet away.
Yesterday at Trader Joe's, as I was looking for a parking spot, a woman was leaning into the backseat of her SUV (I assuming getting a kid settled in), and her (very full) cart rolled away from the car, RIGHT TOWARDS ME.
My life didn't flash before my eyes.
Okay, I guess that wasn't near-death as much as near-ding.
ION, I just got my lipid test results back, and everything that should go down (total cholesterol, LDL, triglycerides) has gone down and is well within normal range, and everything that should go up (HDL) has gone up and is normal.
My total cholesterol is under 200 for the first time in probably 5 years. And I swear I haven't done anything other than eat oatmeal 5 mornings a week. I'm not -- AT ALL -- strict about what I eat, otherwise, so I can't attribute it to general diet. And while I go to the gym, it's only 3-4 times a week, and I'm certainly no powerhouse.
So, oatmeal. Eat it, y'all.
have y'all seen this: [link]
released photos found in storage unit of a serial killer. from like the 70s.
Aw man, Stars on Ice isn't having Johnny Weir on their tour because he's not "family friendly." [link]
But there was a brief moment when it was rolling down hill and I didn't know which way it would go where I was mentally preparing myself for Dodge the Bulldozer.
What you weren't going to run for blocks in front of it with viable escape routes going past to either side?
have y'all seen this: [link] released photos found in storage unit of a serial killer. from like the 70s.
Weird. He appeared as a contestant on
The Dating Game
while he was doing his serial killing.
have y'all seen this: [link] released photos found in storage unit of a serial killer. from like the 70s.
That's gonna show up on Law and Order...or CSI.
Just wanted to share that my cooking for the month plan is in progress. This morning I planned my meals and I just got back from grocery shopping - $250 isn't bad, although I'm sure we will do more shopping over the month.
Now, I'm taking my laptop into the kitchen and I'm going to watch some
White Collar
while I cook stuff.
Didn't a Buffista run themselves over somehow?
That's gonna show up on Law and Order
There already was a Law & Order: CI that had that plot. Roy Scheider was a serial killer from the 60s and 70s who liked to take pictures.
