Sean, I'm sorry you have such a sad duty, but I somehow feel that it's good the work it being done by someone who loves the theater. You know that if you decide you need to look elsewhere for work, there's a Buffista in almost every port, and we'd all be happy to have you as a neighbor.

The weather is very dreary. I have a stir-crazy dog alternating with a dog covered with red clay mud.

Sean that really sucks.

I had my doctor's appointment today, at first the PA said the doctor didn't want to do a procedure to deal with my vestigial ureter tube that is probably causing my infections. And just wait and see what happens and if I get infections again.

I burst into tears. I didn't mean to. And the PA said it's because the surgery that would defintely fix this IS cut me open type thing. BUT that the doctor could cauterize the vestigal thingie and that might work. It might also it might not burn off enough OR it might burn somethign by mistake.

I'm taking my chances and having this done on Friday. At this point I want something done that will reduce my chances of infection and I will know if I get one in the future I'm doing all I can.

Besides the doctors (not this one a different one) talked to my mom about doing this when I was a teen and took the wait and see approach. And I'm still getting infections so obviously somethign needs to be done.

I burst into tears. I didn't mean to.

Hands up if you've done that in a doctor's office before.

t hand goes up

askye, I can totally see why you made that decision. And doctors sometimes forget that it is your decision. Is it something you can get a second opinion on?

I somehow feel that it's good the work it being done by someone who loves the theater.

That's exactly how I feel. Whenever I went anywhere in the building, I was usually running my hand along the wall.

I burst into tears. I didn't mean to.

Hands up if you've done that in a doctor's office before.

<hand goes up> On the upside, the doctor wrote me what may have been the fastest script for Xanax ever penned.

I'm really seeing the best in town and he's retiring this year (after 30 years) so if there's anyone I want to doing a procedure with internal cauterization he's the one.

I don't think that the other more invasive procedure is really on the table as a current option. It's pretty major surgery and so I'm okay with it being a last resort.

The way I feel right now is, I've given up caffeine and soft drinks, I'm going to have this cauterization done, and so I'm doing what I can to reduce my chances of getting UTIs. So after the procedure I'll wait and see, but if I keep getting them and there's a chance this much more invasive surgery will really work then I'll pursue that option.

On the upside, the doctor wrote me what may have been the fastest script for Xanax ever penned.

I'm currently going off not one, but TWO (2!) antidepressants at the same time.

I have officially entered the phase where I am LOSING MY FUCKING MIND. All I want to do is sleep (seriously; we were closed because of snow today, and I slept for 13 hours), and when I'm awake I just cry.

LOSING MY FUCKING MIND. I would be glad for some Xanax, I tell you what.

I have the world's most patient boyfriend EVER.

(Hand goes up) It's totally your call, askye, and obviously the wait and see approach hasn't been successful. But don't feel badly about the tears--I did that myself not long ago.

Whenever I went anywhere in the building, I was usually running my hand along the wall.

Like River inside Serenity. (((Sean)))

I'm sorry, Steph. That sound rough. I hope transitioning off the antidepressants is over soon.

~ma for Connie, TCG's step-grandmother, askye, and Teppy.

Hugs all around, for them as wants 'em.

Nora, I think you and smonster are amazing for putting feet to the words "rebuilding New Orleans".