- sits on the lonely hearts bench*
My lovelife has been pathetic my entire life. When I was in junior high and high school, I consoled myself with the idea that in college people would be more mature and wouldn't be freaked out as much by me, but I was wrong. I'm 44 and I've had 2 short LTRs in my entire life.
I agree with giving hope. I think we really don't know what change could be just around the corner.
But I also feel like I can't spend my life feeling miserable or sorry for myself. I've done a lot of that already and it's a waste of the precious time we have on earth. So while I occasionally still get very low about being without a partner, I try to focus on all the interesting things there are in the world and all the things I would want to do before I die. I try to look outward more because I've been looking inward for a long time and missing life's parade.
The "best years of my life" as far as my body is concerned were my late teens and twenties before I became disabled and while my memory was like a steel trap. However, the best years of my life as far as my emotions and the rest are concerned are now and later. I get better at handling life with each passing year. Better at appreciating it.
To bring myself out of my downward spiral, I went to the source of all internet goodness, the LOLcats: [link] Not exactly work safe, and also... just a warning, I had to clean off my monitor, so please don't click on this with something in your mouth.
Oodles of let it be nothing-ma, Raq.
Fingers crossed, too.
Yes. Much nothing~ma to Raq!
And he asked, "What is this about a dog and a cat?" And my brother said that there is a dog and a cat there sometimes, and he said, "That is not going to work."
What, Indians aren't allowed to have pets, now?!?! WTF?
I am so on that lonely hearts bench. I feel like I'm looking for such a small subset of the population, and the people I'm looking for are either not into me or already taken...I've never dated anyone longer than six months, man. And I've only made six months a couple times. Real encouraging. :(
I apologize, Polter-Cow, but scenes from the first season of The Guild keep popping into my head. "He better still be a virgin!" "But your babies will be so ugly!"
At least I'm on the bench with some beautiful women. All my brain can think of is "if only". I mean, have y'all seen Smonsters OKcupid profile pic? Hubba Hubba!
Speaking of lonely hearts bench. One profile in OKC said something about friends writing it. Anyone interested in writing part/all of mine? Clearly my profile writing abilities suck.
Glamcookie, you caused no bad feelings for me with the kids question. These days I'm feeling much better and happier about lots of things. While it is still one of those things that can eat at me, this discussion didn't upset me or anything.
Piles of let-it-be-nothing-ma heading your way Raq. My money's on cyst.
Have only really skimmed, but much ~ma for Aims (I'm glad to hear she came home), Spidra and anyone else who needs it. And good-decision-on-children~ma for Glamcookie and DW.
Edit: Health~ma for amyth's brother and wishing-for-nothing~ma for Raq.
Children. The idea is anathema to me and always has been. (That may or may not be the remnants of my conservative Christian upbringing.) The Girl would love to have children. There are a lot of issues there, though. Not least that neither of us makes any money and I'm not physically up to looking after kids. (I would be with the right support, but that would necessitate having some money.) We met with my priest for our first pre-wedding discussion last night. He was really positive about our possibilities for kids. I'm not sure I want prayer for the blessing of children at my wedding, though. It's all a bit confusing.
my dad obviously believes he can just convince my brother to break up with his girlfriend of three-and-a-half years because it's not our culture.
I can relate. From the other side. (Although in my case, The Girl's parents think she's the evil corrupting one. Which is both funny and sad.) I hope your brother survives this, and that he can persuade your family that his girl is not evil.
