smonster, I'm sorry the thing didn't go the way you hoped it would. But good for you, getting it done anyhow. Try not to read his emails! And, damn, if the man won't drive across town to a woman's house to try and win her back, he doesn't deserve her.

Also, nom.

askye, I'm not just saying this because *I* have it (you know how, when someone gets diagnosed with something, they think that everyone has it? my dad used to do it with heart disease all the time -- I'd say I was tired [at age 21] and he'd say, in Eeyore-voice, that *he* thought it was probably heart disease and I should see a cardiologist -- not that 21-year-olds can't have heart disease, and given my family history it's possible, but he wasn't the most reliable diagnosticator, you know?), but I'm wondering if your pain is gastrointestinal, like IBS or IBD.

I'm only wondering because I had a lot of pain last year in the pelvic area, so I assumed it was ladyparts-related. I got the dildocam ultrasound, and nothing. And then it turned out to be IBS.

I'm really not trying to be like my dad and diagnose you with what I have, but the symptoms are similar-ish, although your description of it the other night (a "spherical" pain, I think, plus didn't you say it kind of goes down your hip/thigh?) wasn't similar to my gastrointestinal issues. But some of the other symptoms are, so since nothing else is showing up on tests, maybe that's something to talk to your doctor about.

{{{smonster}}} Sorry to hear he's making it so hard for you. I hope you can get some non-stressful time this weekend.

askye, best wishes for a speedy discovery of what's wrong. Having spent 28 years undiagnosed, I know the frustration of not being taken seriously by doctors. You sound like you're pushing it, which also sounds like totally the right thing to do. I hope they figure out what it is really soon.

Saturday. Day for the first of my two criminology essays. Classical criminology vs positivism. Not the most exciting subject ever. I'm having 'what the hell should I do with my life?' issues. It was always the plan that I lived on my savings this (academic) year and focused on PhD funding, but I get *so bored* - despite needing to sleep a lot and only having about three really productive hours a day, most days. Gah. Sometimes I hate being a sickly person. I want to teach. Hmm.

{{{{smonster}}}} I wish it could have been easier. I'm so sorry, sweetie.

I also love Trudy and Erin's father.

Seska, so much ~ma for you and the Girl and coming over here. As I said, I'm willing to do A LOT to see your ass in my country, in person. Not that I'm suggesting that that's the most interesting part of you.

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positivism

is the Nazi Germany of the scientific theories.

I'm having 'what the hell should I do with my life?'

Come to Israel! We'll have coffee!

Today I get to ramble around Chapel Hill and Durham with smonster and amyth. (Mostly rambling via car rather than walking, as my ankle's still being something of a little bitca.) Yay! I haven't been out of the apartment for anything except one day of work since Sunday. But first, coffee and a trip to the vet.

positivism

is the Nazi Germany of the scientific theories.

Oh, no doubt of that. The essay is asking me to put the theories into context. Which I like. I just need to read more around the context, being neither an historian nor a criminologist.

Come to Israel! We'll have coffee!

Hee. Yes, that solves my dilemmas.

Today I get to ramble around Chapel Hill and Durham with smonster and amyth.

So cool! Have fun :)

Big fat flakes of snow. It's so pretty! Glad I don't have to go out in it. The rose is trying to bud for the 4th time this year. Little bud curled up all tight and grumpy getting snowed on.

Instead of hanging on the porch where there's food and shelter, Stray Cat #1 is on the patio getting snowed on, so she can play with Leo. Through the glass.

Good thing I went to the store yesterday. Hate to be snowed in without BACON. Donner, party of seven, your table is ready.

What the hell is "positivism"? Did this happen after I left school, or did I just block it from my negativistic mind?

What the hell is "positivism"? Did this happen after I left school, or did I just block it from my negativistic mind?

Nah - in social science context, this was mostly a nineteenth-century thing. It's an empiricist approach which holds that the principles of the natural sciences can be applied to society. Most social theorists/researchers now find this approach decidedly dodgy, but it was an important development in the social sciences in the 19th C. [link]

(((Askye)))

(((Smonster)))

The little one I am watching just woke up because he needed a diaper change and was not very happy to see me instead of mommy or daddy. He seems to be falling asleep again now.

Tea:

I'm home now with my ovaries aching. G is so adorable. I find it relatively easy for me to take care of a toddler, so I am hoping it will mainly be the first year or so that I will need to adapt baby care to my disability. t /navel gazing