I liked thinking of Santa as a benign fiction we older kids could maintain for the little ones, in the name of fun and games. I felt very grown up about that. Of course, I steadfastly ignored the part about how I knew Santa was actually my parents on purpose for a few years. I blame my little sister, because we had so much fun going out on Christmas Eve, looking up in the sky to spot Rudolph's glowing red nose.

Sweet potato pie: (Homer Simpson noise).

Goodnight everyone.

I will note that while Emmett was pretty upset to discover the truth about Santa, he got over it quickly, recently announced that Christmas is his favorite time of year, and he seems to be eager to stoke Matilda's holiday excitement to a manic pitch.

I'm pretty sure I've shared this story here before. As a kid, I was told that it wasn't fair to tell other kids the truth about Santa -- Santa was fun for them, and telling them would be spoiling their fun. I violated this rule exactly once, in second grade. A kid asked me what I wanted Santa to bring me. I said, "Santa doesn't visit my house. Santa visits houses that celebrate Christmas." He said, "No, Santa visits every good boy and girl. If he's not coming to your house, you must have been bad." I said, "Santa goes to houses that celebrate Christmas. We don't celebrate Christmas, so Santa never comes to our house." He said, "Santa never comes to your house? You must have been really, really bad." I gave up and said, "There is no Santa! Your mom and dad bring those presents!" And he burst into tears.

That kid was begging for it, Hil. Too bad his folks didn't give him the idea that not all people celebrate Christmas. I've told Liv that her bff doesn't celebrate Christmas. She seems to get it.

My parents were big on Santa. There was separate Santa wrapping paper, always crumbs of cookies and just a smidge of milk left. I remember kinda getting that Santa couldn't be real but trying to work out how parents figured out what you wanted. I was thinking maybe there was some way when you sat on Santa's Lap and told him stuff and got your picture taken they also told your parents.

A little health update. I got my results from my ultrasounds - they are clear and show nothing.

Which is frustrating because I was in the worst pain I've had yet last night. So now I'm going to get a CT Scan on Thursday.

I really really hope somethign shows up.

askye, remind me (if you don't mind sharing) -- where is the pain? And what kind of pain is it? And do you have other symptoms? And does anything precipitate the pain and/or other symptoms?

FWIW, my ovarian cysts didn't show up the first time they did the ultrasound on me. And they were easily resolved with a couple of months of hormones once they were.

Just saying it could yet be easy-peasy.

Speaking of doc visits, I don't remember where I posted about giant balls of ear wax? I was sooo hopeful, but no. My ears are "pristine". BUT, the tubes are filled with fluid, which doc says is probably built up from allergies that I didn't know I have. He says the walls get swollen, and fluid that normally passes right out, can't drain. So apparently, that explains the hearing loss and feeling of pressure. I am skeptical. I am supposed to try some OTC allergy meds for a week to see if it dries up. Whatev. I really wanted giant balls of wax to be removed and instant relief.

I also have a ridiculously quick onset cold and my boyfriend is 3,000 miles away and my ex housemate's car's clutch is out so am feeling very alone. And of course, little baby panicking about "who will drive me to the hospital tonight when I slip into a coma??!"

Oh, java, don't worry!

Once you're in the coma, you won't know *where* you are, so you don't really need to be driven to the hospital!

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Thanks, Tep. I feel better now. Fer realz.