Steph, I feel you. I am seeing a therapist for the first time in years, and I have an appt. with a psych to play with my meds. Celexa for almost 10 years, and is the only thing I've ever been on, and the insomnia keeps getting worse, and more depressive eps, and more anxiety about insomnia, which leads to insomnia, which leads to depression...
CBT, weekly therapy sessions, and a psych. I am OVER hoping medication alone will "fix" it. I am happier than I have ever been, and I would like to feel it for more than 48 hours in a row.
I will prolly redact this in a while, but I just went to my therapist this morning, and while DH "knows" this, you all have known me longer, and listened to my rants and wigging longer, and....ugh.
I understand the appeal of the confessional SO much more than I used to.
Nora, what's your news, if you can share? (I'm SO SO sorry for threadjacking, but this has been preying on me, and I have to share it before it eats me from my bottom. Mea culpa.)
Erin, that's not thread-jacking. I hope you get some relief soon.
Feel free to dump on us at any time. There's a lot of folks with shovels to get it out of your way.
Thanks, Maria. I know I blather here a lot, but really, I am more vocal here than many places about feelings, and I internalize and analyze and verbal dialogue EVERYTHING in my head, and...
And, well, all my friends are busy with babies and their own lives, and no one's spouse needs to hear all therapy-talk, especially when one is newlywed.
Ugh. How does one balance THINKING logically about one's depression, while yet trying to NOT THINK about it, which is what feeds into the loop of obsessing about it.
Brains are kinda stupid. I vote Vulcan.
Vulcans only get laid every seven years. They'd be like the rest of us if they "did it" more.
Huh. 7 year itch?
Wouldn't artificial insemination be more...logical?
It would but they'd 'splode.
I just want to say, for the record, that I am honored that people choose to share their insecurities and issues with us. I feel badly when people say that they don't want to hijack the thread or "burden" us when they need to talk about their lives. It's what friends are for, so post on!
Now, I have had a lot of wine, so am feeling very loving right now. Tomorrow, I will go back to my normal judgmental self. I'll still feel the same way, but I just won't admit it ;)
In vino, emphaticas?
Thanks. Y'all are the best.
What I couldn't say earlier was that we had a little surprise party for Sean at the bar, so about 8 of us ganged up on him to make him cheerful and eat a brownie with a candle in it and have many drinks. I don't envy him the hangover he'll have tomorrow, but I think he had a good time.
Also, I can haz Megan Walker! And now sleep. And tomorrow, husband!
Hugs and love to those that need them. That's what we are here for.
