Dang, all the Sears Outlet fridges in my area are the superfancy expensive ones. (Heavily discounted, but still pricier than a basic freezer-on-top model.)

(I've mentioned I want a new kitchen, yes? In spite of the having no disposable income to speak of?)

I'm all shivering and my stomach is turning. I almost can't think of killing my own dog, even if it's for his best.

I think he's in pain, but even when he's just lying down at the same spot for hours, he still can't get enough petting.

Shir, it's important to know that dogs won't ever give up. It's simply not in their biological nature. They're not going to ever show weakness, or any sign that you might take as "giving up" or "ready" to say goodbye. I know it's hard, believe me, but it sounds like it is time. Lou is going to want you to hug and pet him as long as he is alive, but it doesn't mean he's having any true quality of life at this point.

I send many hugs and all of the support I can. You need to not talk about "killing" your dog. Because that is certainly not the same thing as releasing him from his pain.

What java said. When I had to make the call about Lucy last year, it was quite clear that she would power through and struggle to do anything I asked of her. So the descision I made was to stop asking. That was my responsiblity to her, and it was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but also one of the rightest. Whether that time has come for you only you can say, but it feels like it's imminent, and I hope you can be okay with it. You're not failing him in any way, really.

{{{Shir}}}

So the descision I made was to stop asking. That was my responsiblity to her, and it was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but also one of the rightest.

This times a thousand. Taking Sage to the vet was so sad, but I knew it was the right thing. I am still so thankful that my vet was so extremely compassionate about it.

it was quite clear that she would power through and struggle to do anything I asked of her. So the descision I made was to stop asking.

This. It's so hard. Made that same call a couple years ago and it's not easier, but it was the right thing to do.

{{{Shir}}}

We'll go anyway to the vet tomorrow.

I'm just waiting to see if he'll pull one of his Lazarus tricks. Because he sometimes can seem almost dead, and then come back with the energy of a puppy. Few minutes ago he drank a hell lot of water.

I'd never ask him for too much, though.

I wish it would have been tomorrow already. Just so I'll know. Just so I'll be done with. The past few weeks... living hell. And the bizarre part is that I just want to get another dog straight after Louie. Because I need to love some creature like that, again. Even after all that, and with knowing that that will keep my parents in the settlement for some more time.

I knew it was the right thing

That's just the thing. It doesn't feel right, not just yet.

{{Shir}}

ma~~~ for Lou. andy would have stayed a little longer. but watching him die inch by inch was killing me. I stopped his suffering. And that he didn't fight.

easy surgery and healing to EM

and I love looking at pictures of happy wedded Erin